Tuesday, December 26, 2006

moving, passwording.

i know i said awhile ago bout the last post. but i am back.

i'll be moving. somewhr new.. a new blog maybe. but i'll be setting password. so whoever wants pls e-mail to the add u see on ur right.

life is funny. you can feel the warm in ur heart when u know that your love, woke up early to buy breakfast for u. but he only has the money for one set coz if he go and withdraw money, he will miss the breakfast 'hours'. but he still go ahead and bought it for u. 1 set. for you only. just simply bcoz u said if u can't have that u don't want anything at all.

and later in the night, u found out he lied. about another girl. blocking her on his main msn and adding her in another. solely for her. and he told you that he had not use these email add for a long time. that it was used in sec school days. but the girl is his poly mate. he then became defensive and start raising your voice at you. the 2nd time u felt that kind of hurt in ur heart. the 1st was 4 years back. the very same kind. the kind where you tot you will never have to go thru again.

on xmas night, u cry urself to bed. you cannot afford not to sleep. you have work next day. but tears just kept flowing. and woke up with a swollen eyes. for once, you are glad you are wearing specs and not lens. with the verge of crying every single time ppl ask 'why you look so sad' at work on boxing day.

on the same day, you gave him a chance to explain everything. you asked questions. lots of them. but none he could answer. but expecting you to trust him. the girl told him 'put yourself in my shoes and think. you never tot bout how hurt will i feel. you only know how to be defensive and raise you voice at me. not giving me the explaination that me, as your gf shld know. you have made your choice when you decide to cover and protect her existance from me. ' all the boy could say was 'after we got together there is nothing that i did to let you down. nothing at all'

all the girl wants to know is all the answers to the questions.

the girl decides that if by friday, the 29th, girl still did not get the answer she wants, she will walk away.. put the past aside.. and leave... guess whatever future the boy and girl talked about will come to an end...

真的是我不够好？还是你心里已有你认为比我更好的人？
Hanlin slept soundly at 8:52:00 PM