Tuesday, September 12, 2006

rollercoaster

life's been a rollercoaster ride lately. regardless of work or love. the only thing that never give me anymore problem den my already problem-ed life is family and friends.

been thinking alot lately.
been thinking bout what had happen in the past 4 years. what happened between us.
been thinking bout what you had said on sunday night. it brought up the memories that i choose to forget.
been thinking bout the thrown away diary i used to keep cos you brought the issue up.
been thinking what is inside the diary and why i threw it away. the only reason why i threw it away is because i am too self-conscious to let you know what is inside.
been thinking bout what you said about keeping online diary.
been thinking bout what you said bout me being the perfect person in my world.
been thinking bout the sudden change in you. the change which i think i might never get used to.
been thinking bout that very sentence you said.
been thinking bout the way you compare, with everything.
been thinking bout whether the change is caused by another person, another girl.
been thinking whether all this is just purely revenge.

its hard to smile to you with so much going through my mind. its hard to act bubbly, its hard to act my usual self.

if you happen to read this, pls don comment. i'm not trying to victimise myself here. i'm just trying to let it out.

i don't know when the path where we walk down hand in hand will end. but why do i have a feeling its ending soon? why don't i have the feeling of assurance anymore?
Hanlin slept soundly at 2:05:00 PM