Monday, September 25, 2006

i love weekdays!

i hereby declare i love weekdays! and i dread weekends.

yes, i know weekends i can just laze ard at home... doing nothing.. and most imptly rest. but somehow, i love being drowned by work for now, till i am able to slow down my pace without... without.. you know what. although i still complain of cos.

alot ppl have been asking me whether i'm ok. I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!! *BIG HUGS* i would usually stare blank for awhile, think for awhile and give the same answer.

i couldn't afford to be not ok right?

von used to always tell me, the stronger you are, the more worried i am.

but... but... the world doesn't stop just for me. everything still have to go on. i rather smile, even if i faked it but still.. i rather smile and carry on with life. i don't like to show the weaker side of me. this is just me.

what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. if i fall, i will make sure i will stand. using my own effort. but i still need some tender loving care from my girlies. hur hur. after that, i'll be a stronger me!

diamonds are forever, so are my girlies. *hugs+kisses*

i still miss you.. *sulks*
Hanlin slept soundly at 8:57:00 PM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

a particular scene of us kept flashing cross my mind.. it goes something like this:

location: taka basement

me: i want to eat aunty annie!!
you: go buy lor.
me: *walks over* auntie, i want sour cream 1.
you: you want to drink or not?
me: *nod nod*
you: eh... one more lemonade. *pay money*
us: *walks up the escalator*

i cannot remember when is the last time we did something like this... something so simple, so normal, thus nobody cherish it.

i am so craving for auntie annie's. *sulks*
Hanlin slept soundly at 7:02:00 PM

Thursday, September 21, 2006

work = killing

i found out the true defination of work already. work = kill in silence.

work ended at 4plus am yesterday. came home, slept for 1.5 hrs, went to work again. i think i shld stay there. but still, at least i went home early today. tomorrow is another round of OTs.

went back at 3.30pm. went to SP to get my cert. went home concuss till now. think i going back to sleep after this.

planned for bangkok next yr January with Miss Poh and Miss Juli. BUT if i couldn't find a partner to go with me den i shall not go.

i'm having a mind blockage. so much things to blog before i logged in to blogger. nothing to blog after i logged in. THIS, is pathetic.
Hanlin slept soundly at 10:29:00 PM

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

untitled.

this is the 1st time things did not turn out ugly. but still....

will there be another chance our path will cross?

i sincerely wish u all the best..

2 days... just 2 days... why did it seems so long?

i'm buried with work. buried alive. god..........
Hanlin slept soundly at 7:16:00 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

rollercoaster

life's been a rollercoaster ride lately. regardless of work or love. the only thing that never give me anymore problem den my already problem-ed life is family and friends.

been thinking alot lately.
been thinking bout what had happen in the past 4 years. what happened between us.
been thinking bout what you had said on sunday night. it brought up the memories that i choose to forget.
been thinking bout the thrown away diary i used to keep cos you brought the issue up.
been thinking what is inside the diary and why i threw it away. the only reason why i threw it away is because i am too self-conscious to let you know what is inside.
been thinking bout what you said about keeping online diary.
been thinking bout what you said bout me being the perfect person in my world.
been thinking bout the sudden change in you. the change which i think i might never get used to.
been thinking bout that very sentence you said.
been thinking bout the way you compare, with everything.
been thinking bout whether the change is caused by another person, another girl.
been thinking whether all this is just purely revenge.

its hard to smile to you with so much going through my mind. its hard to act bubbly, its hard to act my usual self.

if you happen to read this, pls don comment. i'm not trying to victimise myself here. i'm just trying to let it out.

i don't know when the path where we walk down hand in hand will end. but why do i have a feeling its ending soon? why don't i have the feeling of assurance anymore?
Hanlin slept soundly at 2:05:00 PM