Thursday, October 12, 2006

just a little while more...

let me just dwell in self pity a little while more... before i pick myself up from where i left it 4 years back..

just a little while more..

a little while more...
Hanlin slept soundly at 9:19:00 AM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

李圣杰 - 重来

有多少爱能重来
多少人愿意等待
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待
原来是一种伤害
心爱的人已离开
是我不该忽略你
给我的爱

现在我只想回到
最初的时候
不愿再让你泪流
心疼时候只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
新的需要的你的我
一切从头

有多少爱能重来
多少人愿意等待
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待
原来是一种伤害
心爱的人已离开
是我不该忽略你
给我的爱
现在我只想回到
最初的时候
不愿再让你泪流
心疼时候只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要的你的我
只要你回头

现在我只想回到
最初的时候
不愿再让你泪流
心疼时候只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要的你的我
只要你回头
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its amazing how some songs can reflect how u feel.
Hanlin slept soundly at 9:30:00 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

only till now i know i'm living in a dream.
a dream of us.
i used to think everything about you, about me, is about us.
till recently, i realise this is not so.
it never is.
4 years. four.but you still are a mystery.
finally i woke up from the dream and realise everything about you is about her, and everything about me is about us.
to me, you are always a mystery.
i don't know what you are thinking.
to you, i'm transparent.
even the days when we are not together, i am still transparent.
to me, you are like a piece of vanguard.
i can never look through.
no matter how hard i try there is always tiny bits of things that i will find out.
which i do not wish to.
find out that i do not fully occupy your heart.
find out that you are not mine, from the start.
somewhere, there is a her.
i know there is.
to you, somewhere, there is always a him.
but i know there isn't.

i lost you.
i know i really did this time.

good bye

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i thought i had gotten over it. i really believe i had.
i teared. i did not cry.

i thought i never will.
i thought it was meant for me.
i thought...

i think about you more then i know..

i wish i didn't know what i know.
i wish i know if you really mean those.
i wish...

i hope things did not turn out like this.
i hope we were still in tioman.
i really hope...

after so long.. after 4 years.. everything i thought was wonderful was just a dream.

i will stand.. but i need time..

i need time...
a very long period of time i think..
very very long...
Hanlin slept soundly at 10:46:00 PM