Friday, November 04, 2005

u may not have realise...

that some of the entries in my archives are gone, gone for good.

a few days back, dear said he does not wan anithing from the past to appear again.he was refering to my archives, the posts bout me and him. and i agreed, without thinking.

but after thinking bout it for a moment, i requested to dear whether could i not delete. its not as thou it mean anithing to me anymore. its just that its my thoughts at that time, and i just want to read back and know what was i thinking at that time, how do i feel etc.

but eventually i gave in. i agreed to delete whatever post he wants me to if it can give him a sense of security. i mean, he's my boyfriend now right? wad else matter?

but this makes me realise, how attached i grown to be with this blog. i couldn't sleep that nite. i kept thinking. and i swear, i will not delete another entry from my blog again. its like tearing pages from your diary. i am not mad at dear or anithing, i did it willingly. but, i will not do it again, coz its my thing, my blog, my diary.

was just reading through the other not deleted post, and i realise, i actually don remember some of the things i wrote down at all. i'm glad i started, started to blog, started to pen down my thoughts, coz i'm a forgetful person. i hope next year at this time when i read my blog, i and recollect some of the memories, read my thoughts and see if i have grown up, or see if i have changed.

i am so tired and busy nowadays, with sch and public holiday in between. keep making mistake at work. getting pissed off by the slightest thing.

i need to do my fyp now. i shall blog bout something more light hearted tml.

as for this post, it is not a complain. it is just something i want to let myself remember. do not judge my boyfriend due to this, he is a wonderful guy. he really is.
Hanlin slept soundly at 12:38:00 AM