i know i have complete my share,
i know that i can go and rest after so many nights,
i know i can continue my other stuff tml,
i know i can finally shut my eyes early for once,
but, what is this uneasiness in me?

i am afraid.
afraid i might not do well in school,
afraid i might not be able to hand in my assignment in time,
afraid i might not be able to cope with the stress and break down,
afraid i might forget to do my stuff and causing trouble for my group member,
afraid of studying,
afraid of being late for school,
afraid of my fyp submission date,
afraid of tutorials,
afraid of projects being given again,
afraid of not being able to graduate,
afraid of graduating,
afraid of not knowing what to do or where to go after my graduation,
afraid of losing everyone whom is so dear to me bcoz of my busy schedule,
afraid i will do something wrong when working when weekend comes,
afraid of so much more.

i am scared. i might breakdown.

i am so tired. what have i not completed? what can i do to help?

i am getting forgetful, very forgetful.

money spend on taking cab to sch coz i'm late is costing a bomb.
i must wake up earlier. i must complete whatever i can.

i wanna study somemore.
but i'm afraid i can't get into any school.
i wanna further study.

i just wanna rest.

sigh...