Tuesday, May 17, 2005

morning sickness.

jus woke up. due to bad dreams.
its damn bad. and i woke up crying. crying for damn long k.

this is how the dream goes....

me and dear went shopping. and we were on our way to mit up with tricia. she's in town too. i was at PS if i'm not wrong. den i saw dear sms-ing a ger. "sorry for that day. i think i scare u. but i really mean wad i have said." i start crying already. i asked dear, he kept quiet. so i keep walking. walking away frm him. dear tried to explain but i didn't hear a word he say. den i took my bag (he was holding it for me) and go into the toilet. den i saw a few yusoffians (i dunno them) in the toilet. WTF? den they 2 person share 1 toilet. more WTFs?!? den i came out of toilet and sat smwhere. i called dear. den karen suddenly pop out sit beside me. LOL! i did not tok. dear started saying all those mean words. smthing like..."u are so stupid u noe that? yada yada" i forget the rest. but it was damn hurting. coz he was laughing while saying all that. den i jus cry and cry and cry. at the PS MRT STATION!!!!!

idiotic dream. i told dear. he assured me that it will not happen. OH! another thing. i said to tricia i will be calling her today bcoz she is in town too! so that means the dream happen today. lets pray everything goes fine.

some stuff in the dream i will not do.
i would not end up in mrt station. i will take a cab home.
i would nv allow myself to cry in mrt station. simply too many ppl there.
i would not call dear and let him insult me while i keep quiet and listen.
last but not least....dear will nv be so stupid to let me see he sms ger 1.

woke up with serious headache. dryness in my mouth. the world is spinning. and i feel like vomitting. grrr. morning sickness. hate them.

due to the stupid dream i now super low morale. super super low.
damn.
i'm so sad now.
Hanlin slept soundly at 11:36:00 AM