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moving, passwording.

2006-12-26T20:52:00.000+08:00

i know i said awhile ago bout the last post. but i am back.

i'll be moving. somewhr new.. a new blog maybe. but i'll be setting password. so whoever wants pls e-mail to the add u see on ur right.

life is funny. you can feel the warm in ur heart when u know that your love, woke up early to buy breakfast for u. but he only has the money for one set coz if he go and withdraw money, he will miss the breakfast 'hours'. but he still go ahead and bought it for u. 1 set. for you only. just simply bcoz u said if u can't have that u don't want anything at all.

and later in the night, u found out he lied. about another girl. blocking her on his main msn and adding her in another. solely for her. and he told you that he had not use these email add for a long time. that it was used in sec school days. but the girl is his poly mate. he then became defensive and start raising your voice at you. the 2nd time u felt that kind of hurt in ur heart. the 1st was 4 years back. the very same kind. the kind where you tot you will never have to go thru again.

on xmas night, u cry urself to bed. you cannot afford not to sleep. you have work next day. but tears just kept flowing. and woke up with a swollen eyes. for once, you are glad you are wearing specs and not lens. with the verge of crying every single time ppl ask 'why you look so sad' at work on boxing day.

on the same day, you gave him a chance to explain everything. you asked questions. lots of them. but none he could answer. but expecting you to trust him. the girl told him 'put yourself in my shoes and think. you never tot bout how hurt will i feel. you only know how to be defensive and raise you voice at me. not giving me the explaination that me, as your gf shld know. you have made your choice when you decide to cover and protect her existance from me. ' all the boy could say was 'after we got together there is nothing that i did to let you down. nothing at all'

all the girl wants to know is all the answers to the questions.

the girl decides that if by friday, the 29th, girl still did not get the answer she wants, she will walk away.. put the past aside.. and leave... guess whatever future the boy and girl talked about will come to an end...

真的是我不够好？还是你心里已有你认为比我更好的人？

Last Post

2006-11-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

This blog is going to be closed down.

Yes, you heard it right. I will be closing this blog down, well not closing it down, but just that I won't be posting here anymore.

During the past month, there were some sad times but it seems my fortune has turned for the better and everything is right again.

Someone from my past appeared and it seems he still keeps my photos. To that person, GET A LIFE. Are you unable to get a gf that you have to keep my photos? I honestly do not care if you keep it or not, but I would appreciate it if you just get rid of it. By keeping it, you are just proving to me that you are pathetic. And you chose to appear at a right time when I was feeling down, but please do not try to be a person who thinks I am vulnerable when I am down. And I would certainly appreciate it if you stop contacting me. I hope you are reading this.

I said awhile back that I would need a little time to pick myself up, but it seems that I extended my hand and someone was there to pick me up. Now I just hope that I will be able to walk down the road hand in hand with that person. How long? How about forever? haha

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just a little while more...

2006-10-12T09:19:00.000+08:00

let me just dwell in self pity a little while more... before i pick myself up from where i left it 4 years back..

just a little while more..

a little while more...

李圣杰 - 重来

2006-10-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

有多少爱能重来
多少人愿意等待
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待
原来是一种伤害
心爱的人已离开
是我不该忽略你
给我的爱

现在我只想回到
最初的时候
不愿再让你泪流
心疼时候只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
新的需要的你的我
一切从头

有多少爱能重来
多少人愿意等待
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待
原来是一种伤害
心爱的人已离开
是我不该忽略你
给我的爱
现在我只想回到
最初的时候
不愿再让你泪流
心疼时候只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要的你的我
只要你回头

现在我只想回到
最初的时候
不愿再让你泪流
心疼时候只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要的你的我
只要你回头
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its amazing how some songs can reflect how u feel.

2006-10-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

only till now i know i'm living in a dream.
a dream of us.
i used to think everything about you, about me, is about us.
till recently, i realise this is not so.
it never is.
4 years. four.but you still are a mystery.
finally i woke up from the dream and realise everything about you is about her, and everything about me is about us.
to me, you are always a mystery.
i don't know what you are thinking.
to you, i'm transparent.
even the days when we are not together, i am still transparent.
to me, you are like a piece of vanguard.
i can never look through.
no matter how hard i try there is always tiny bits of things that i will find out.
which i do not wish to.
find out that i do not fully occupy your heart.
find out that you are not mine, from the start.
somewhere, there is a her.
i know there is.
to you, somewhere, there is always a him.
but i know there isn't.

i lost you.
i know i really did this time.

good bye

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i thought i had gotten over it. i really believe i had.
i teared. i did not cry.

i thought i never will.
i thought it was meant for me.
i thought...

i think about you more then i know..

i wish i didn't know what i know.
i wish i know if you really mean those.
i wish...

i hope things did not turn out like this.
i hope we were still in tioman.
i really hope...

after so long.. after 4 years.. everything i thought was wonderful was just a dream.

i will stand.. but i need time..

i need time...
a very long period of time i think..
very very long...

i love weekdays!

2006-09-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

i hereby declare i love weekdays! and i dread weekends.

yes, i know weekends i can just laze ard at home... doing nothing.. and most imptly rest. but somehow, i love being drowned by work for now, till i am able to slow down my pace without... without.. you know what. although i still complain of cos.

alot ppl have been asking me whether i'm ok. I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!! *BIG HUGS* i would usually stare blank for awhile, think for awhile and give the same answer.

i couldn't afford to be not ok right?

von used to always tell me, the stronger you are, the more worried i am.

but... but... the world doesn't stop just for me. everything still have to go on. i rather smile, even if i faked it but still.. i rather smile and carry on with life. i don't like to show the weaker side of me. this is just me.

what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. if i fall, i will make sure i will stand. using my own effort. but i still need some tender loving care from my girlies. hur hur. after that, i'll be a stronger me!

diamonds are forever, so are my girlies. *hugs+kisses*

i still miss you.. *sulks*

2006-09-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

a particular scene of us kept flashing cross my mind.. it goes something like this:

location: taka basement

me: i want to eat aunty annie!!
you: go buy lor.
me: *walks over* auntie, i want sour cream 1.
you: you want to drink or not?
me: *nod nod*
you: eh... one more lemonade. *pay money*
us: *walks up the escalator*

i cannot remember when is the last time we did something like this... something so simple, so normal, thus nobody cherish it.

i am so craving for auntie annie's. *sulks*

work = killing

2006-09-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

i found out the true defination of work already. work = kill in silence.

work ended at 4plus am yesterday. came home, slept for 1.5 hrs, went to work again. i think i shld stay there. but still, at least i went home early today. tomorrow is another round of OTs.

went back at 3.30pm. went to SP to get my cert. went home concuss till now. think i going back to sleep after this.

planned for bangkok next yr January with Miss Poh and Miss Juli. BUT if i couldn't find a partner to go with me den i shall not go.

i'm having a mind blockage. so much things to blog before i logged in to blogger. nothing to blog after i logged in. THIS, is pathetic.

untitled.

2006-09-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

this is the 1st time things did not turn out ugly. but still....

will there be another chance our path will cross?

i sincerely wish u all the best..

2 days... just 2 days... why did it seems so long?

i'm buried with work. buried alive. god..........

rollercoaster

2006-09-12T14:05:00.000+08:00

life's been a rollercoaster ride lately. regardless of work or love. the only thing that never give me anymore problem den my already problem-ed life is family and friends.

been thinking alot lately.
been thinking bout what had happen in the past 4 years. what happened between us.
been thinking bout what you had said on sunday night. it brought up the memories that i choose to forget.
been thinking bout the thrown away diary i used to keep cos you brought the issue up.
been thinking what is inside the diary and why i threw it away. the only reason why i threw it away is because i am too self-conscious to let you know what is inside.
been thinking bout what you said about keeping online diary.
been thinking bout what you said bout me being the perfect person in my world.
been thinking bout the sudden change in you. the change which i think i might never get used to.
been thinking bout that very sentence you said.
been thinking bout the way you compare, with everything.
been thinking bout whether the change is caused by another person, another girl.
been thinking whether all this is just purely revenge.

its hard to smile to you with so much going through my mind. its hard to act bubbly, its hard to act my usual self.

if you happen to read this, pls don comment. i'm not trying to victimise myself here. i'm just trying to let it out.

i don't know when the path where we walk down hand in hand will end. but why do i have a feeling its ending soon? why don't i have the feeling of assurance anymore?

我累了。

2006-08-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

我好累好累。
这残酷的世界弄得我好累。
这世界明争暗斗，这世界的种种。
我更本不想进入这样的世界。
没有人会感谢你为他们所作的。
他们只会应为自己的方便，自己的需要，不断的要求，不断的逼你，只为了得到他们要的结果。
可是，他们从来没想过，我做得来吗？我能应付吗？
我承认，人不为己，天诛地灭。那又有谁为我？

我真的不知道我的下一步要是要继续还是逃避。
难道一定要全身是伤才算是赢家吗？

在这现实的世界，没人会挺你，只能自己靠自己。
没有人会管你的死活。
如果没死，算你幸运。
如果死了，是你活该。

啊！说出来舒服多了。继续工作！加油加油加油！！！

time check: 9.54pm

to you only.

2006-08-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

girl, i know its something new, i know its tough. i know it is something i will not understand unless i go thru it myself even thou i say "i understand".

but 1 thing for sure, i know you can. jia you.

anything give me a call alright? although i cannot help much (i know NUTS lor) but i can be there to listen. promise that you will not deal with it alone ok? i know u don need sympathy (this is so YOU) but this is CONCERN ok!

bu yao mo mo de yi ge ren, ni hai you wo.

love.

contended

2006-07-23T17:42:00.000+08:00

life is a bliss when you could laze around at home, with a book in hand, with a mug of ice cold water and a plate of chips beside you (this is SOOOOO unhealthy namely FAT). waiting for you parents to come back with you dinner. and after that, wait for you bf to be home after work. *smiles*

i'm so homely.

random updates...

2006-07-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

what contribute to being a QS?

you must be able to commit yourself to work even if it is till 11pm
you must be able to keep yourself awake during the next day of work
you must be able to know your stuff even if your boss don't
you must be able to take SHIT from your employer (client) even if it means the document you spend 3 days preparing goes to the dustbin

I WANNA GO BACK STUDY!!!

anyway, i itchy backside and went to perm my hair AGAIN. lol.

i so love this photo. he hardly smile like this in photos. thx dear, for sending me to and from work. thx for your patience, thx for being there.

politics

2006-07-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

our GE has jus passed in.. lets say... exactly 2 mths? it is 6th of may? i remember it is. oh well..

if GE has passed and will not come in a couple of years time, why the hell am i facing politics again? seriously, i hate politics. all kind of politics.

the "BATTLE BETWEEN THE SEXES" is getting serious, too serious.

so.. i have come out with ways to avoid all bullets shooting ard in that small compartment of ours.

1) jus smile. DO NOT comment.
2) act blur. ppl wun bother if u act blur. the reason they play with politics is because they wan you to side them. act blur to show u don understand them.
3) go toilet. best way to avoid bullets.
4) go for a smoke. be a good friend and ask another friend along.
5) act busy. the busier you are, the better. they wun bother u and u wun have time to bother bout them

thank god i am moving out of war ground in AUG.

NEW NAME!!!

2006-07-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

ME IS EXCITED.

I found a new name for myself!!! LINDSY. hahahahhaha. its the closest to linzzy that i can think of. hahahahhahha..

I AM LINDSY LI!

so call me LINDSY from now on ok! *flips hair*

guys..irritating ones.

2006-06-30T15:14:00.000+08:00

seriously, i freaking hate it when a guy comes to me and ask for my girlfriend number. ESP when i know that person BUT have not been contacting long enough for spider webs to grow on our FRIENDSHIP and that person suddenly come to me and ask me for the number.

when i say no, i will not give it to you, you should jolly well stop asking. when u asked again and i reveal the fact that SHE HAS A BF FOR 3 FREAKING YEARS, you should know my stand. don give me the shit bout just being friends. you won't want to be friends if you go thru friendster to msg me to add u on MSN. and keep forcing ME, read, ME to think who is the girl who went KTV together DONKEY YEARS AGO i believe you would not want to be ONLY FRIENDS.

sorry to disappoint you, but i am not those type who give ANYONE my girlfriends number so DON TELL ME GO HELP YOU ASK HER. when i say NO, mean NO. don't guys know how to take NO for an answer?

when a guy says jus want to be friend, my mind will auto generate an equation:

want to be friend = i just wanna get her on bed.

some people just don't know when to stop.

pissed off.

tired.

2006-06-29T10:07:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired. my eyes are popping out already. work is so monotone.

"How have you been?"

Its such simple words, such simple concern, so hard to put it in action. Do you know that this is what i've been wanting to ask since dino age bt have no courage to say it to you?

-back to work-

p.s: MISS NUR!!!! *waves*

hiatus

2006-05-25T01:00:00.000+08:00

i am sick of pretending
i am sick and tired of lying
it is pissing me off and making me so sian of everything.
i just want it to be over.

why is it always so hard to say the truth?
its not that i want to lie. its that i can't speak the truth.
people cannot take the truth.

i don wanna know. i don wanna know what ppl will think, i don wanna care how ppl will feel. i just wanna speak the truth. but i can't. its tough. i hate lying.

i am taking a break. till when i dunno.

THIS, have to stop.

2006-05-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

today is a happy day.

happy girl (refering to me) has successfully tempt my very noisy but nice colleague organise a spree for accessories. hahahahahaha. but not she order la, she IS lazy. she asked her fren for help. hur hur. but still.. thx hor!!! hehehe.

but this is so bad lor. i already tired my VERY best to reduce to the very least of 5 items liao. cannot reduce liao. BUT!!! its bout 45 buckeroos ok! my GOD!!! me, miss li, is poor.

online shopping HAS to stop. like real.

on the other hand.. the stupid cats downstairs have such exciting and high sex life that it is starting to bother me AGAIN. (i sort of remember i complain bout this before. oh well..)

some HOC (Head Of Cats) or CAP (Cat Action Party) or CP (Cat Party) should start educating their cats that they SHOULD NOT have sexual intercourse at bushes. becos, 1) it is so dirty, 2) a rat may just run pass and disturb the whole procedure or 3) an insect mainly xiao qiang may run pass and disturb the ambience. oh! last but not least, IT IS IRRITATING ME!

If they MUST have sexual intercourse at bushes, they should go to somewhere far away from my block. a radius of 10km away from my block is a MUST.

or maybe, the government body (HOC, CAP or CP) should castrate all cats to elimate all stray cats and leaving only the upper class of the cats to reproduce and sell away to petshop in order to maintain a balance life cycle.

cats having sexual intercourse within 10km of my block have to stop. for real.

the long waited, KL trip.

2006-05-07T17:16:00.000+08:00

While waiting for Time Sq to open...

my cutest bf.
my cutest mother.
my cutest brother.
the cutest of the cutest, me. hahahahahha

At the hotel..

my brother cutting toe nail. LOL!!! *snap snap*
WAH!!! LIFT BOMBA!!! somehow i came up with my own explaination..

when BOMBA (explosion) time, this is the lift to use. OR.. Do not use this lift, it will explode. DI BA BOM!!!!

Waiting for bus back...

my bestest friends. One my closest, one my dearest.

My Loots..

all the small small items..

Butterfly Keychain!!!

Makeups..

Accessories...

heels... its measured to 3.5 inch in height. weeeee.. so so preety...

lighters...

bags...

i am so not in the mood to blog la. i want to go out with my BF!!!!!!! i am deprived of my WEEKENDS!!!!!!! *sigh* times like this, i need somewhere to shout out. times like this, i shall go sleep...

so much to say, so little time.

2006-04-28T18:54:00.000+08:00

i'm zooming off to KL tml. in bout 12 hours time.
so many thoughts in mind, so many things i want to blog. so little time.

Thought 1.

i mass smsed my friends yesterday, and the msg goes...

IF YOU COULD STEAL 1 THING FROM ME, wad would it be? A reply is a must! You can send this to all your friends and be amazed at the replies. But you must reply me first. :)

and so.. the replieS were..

Angela: Your eyes. haha. and your time. and your hugs and kisses.
*thx sweetie. i promise to go visit you after my KL trip. *pray that u work that day and u better ans my call!*

Tricia: ? your big ass
*hahahahahhaha. go ahead. with this promotion, getting my big ass will include all the excess fats i have. wish you have a happy day ahead dear. LOL!*

Zhiwei: your attitude.
*i nv understood why. oh well...*

Aimei: it will be you.
*i'm so lovable. hahahahahahah*

Sabrina aka mama: take away your lame-ness. den free me from -.-"
*hahahahha. thx ah. but without my lame-ness i wun be so loveable liao. so cannot.*

Kathy: your shoes.
*-.-" darling, that was so unexpected from you. now i know how much you love my shoes. but sorry hor, too big for u. hahahahahahaha*

Yvonne: your intelligence.
*sorry babe. i would always like to share some with u. but i have a problem, that is having enough for myself. hehe*

yes, all my cute friends.

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Thought 2.

realise there is a big hoo-ha in singapore now eh? Election has got me thinking. ALOT.

they say opposition is coming strong this year. and sometimes, i really wonder why.
the real reason? TAKING THINGS FOR GRANTED.

i must say, i am not a huge supporter for neither party. this is me, on neutral ground. but anyway, my area also no need to vote. i support who also not important ma. furthermore,if need to vote i also cannot vote yet.

so anyway, why do i say take things for granted. that is because singapore is too smooth sailing. people say PAP no competition. every year also win. i have been hearing alot on why people are voting the opposition party. they vote because "CANNOT ALWAYS LET PAP WIN MA. MUST LET THEM HAVE SOME COMPETITION. SO I VOTE OPPOSITION LOR."

LIKE WHAT THE HEOW?!?

these people too free nothing to do is it? competition? compete wad? whoes poster hang higher? so you all want competition la. then be like other country got riot wan or not? riot then your love ones go join lor, then police catch or kena sue. or even worst. kena kill. like that competition ok with you? no? compete ma. must like that 1 wad.

what i am trying to mean is, i always thought people vote is because that party has done things for them, so they support them. but now in singapore, voting seems like pulling the strongest off the stage means win. voting meaning they pull the strongest off the stage and so they can have something new. something new ma, den happy.

but why they do not think bout wad PAP has done is the past years? people say only when election then they give bonus(progress package) to people. this is to secure their vote. but if you take their money don vote for them they also LL wad. they will not ask you return the money also wad. government don't give progress package comprain. give, also comprain. alot people might say "its my money wad. i pay tax 1 ok." if like that, then what bout those over 21 bout haven start working people? they should not get what. its not substantial.

this is the same as on tues or wenesday, i heard from my dad that alot people call in to the radio station and comprain about Mark Lee. why you ask. cos apparently, Mark Lee kicked hui-ge's(dunno what his english name la. the short short pronounciation cmi 1 la.) butt on comedy night(is it comedy night? i dunno la. on monday 1). so people complain. after listening i went...

WHAT THE HEOW??! again..

its like when he kicked hui-ge's butt, everyone is laughing. its a way to increase the "laughing level", to make it funnier. then after people laugh, the next day they call radio station to comprain. right..

the above is what is happening to our election this year. after all the good years with good government(they laugh finish liao), then they go vote against them (call radio station and comprain.). for wad? because they want something new lor. they want to see their-so-called COMPETITION.

i so cannot believe i am living in this KIND of society. it disgust me to see childish mindset coming from people who might be older then me more than a decade.

*p.s: progress package out liao, so many above 21 people at atm. like queuing for RA ticket like that. i still cannot "buy". so how? LL stand and watch them check their money lor. money given to them by a party whom they want to see it fall. how nice hor?

photos!!!

2006-04-26T21:56:00.000+08:00

weeee... its photos time...

All my online shopping loot!!!!

BAG!!!!

ugly wrapping. urgh!

hiakz. its so beautiful~~~

BIRKIS!!!!
its so pretty.. hiaks

NAIL POLISH!!!!!
that all la.. now still waiting for 1 more skirt. hehe. now u know why i am so broke this mth rite? lol.

*p.s: mui ah mui..... all ur fault!! hahahahahahahah =P

random photos of bobby!! hehe.

see that red bandage? so poor thing.. gotta do blood test at the clinic. he is sick. sigh.

and now.... i am going to end the blog with..........

A PRETTY ME...

and....

A SILLY BF!!!!!!

hahahahahahhahahaha.

*p.s: the above photo is being forced by me. he is so not silly.

friends, what are they?

2006-04-19T09:19:00.000+08:00

i've been wanting to write this post SO long ago. and is it a SUPER long post.

how do ppl catergorise strangers as friends?
i seriously wonder.

1) do you happen to know this person, lets call him A, for years and you both once hang out awhile so after 10 years of losing contact he is also your friend?
2) or you always hear bout this person A form your close friend and thus when u talk bout A to your other friends, he too become your friend?
3) or after a few exchange of e-mail or worst, friendster message, that other party is your friend too?
4) or u have seen him/her a few times and both of you know the presence of each other thus he/she become your friend too?
5) or simply because you are too lazy to catergorise them so you put them all in a catergory name "friends"?

some may say friends can range from acquaintance to really close ones or so called true friends. then ok lor. we shall leave it as it is and we can all say "WE HAVE SO MANY MANY FRIENDS." ya right.

I always believed that a true friend is someone who will say what he/she don't like bout what u do you right in your face. but i come to realise that not many people can do that (or maybe is because i am always right la. hahahahahhahahaha). but how many true friends do you have? or how many friends are you true to?

it is human nature to be afraid of offending people. especially people you care about. i am afraid of offending people too. and i know alot people are not able to comments from other ppl. and by comments, i mean CONSTRUCTIVE comments hor, not destructive ones.

if you come tell me right in my face and say i am fat. THAT, is destructive. hahahahahhahahaha
and u will so pissed me off that i will strangle u on the spot. wahahahahah.

if you come tell me that i am fat, and u sponsor my slimming session. THAT, is constructive. muahahahahahah.

but anyway, i very little this type of friend. damn sad. i think it is less then the fingers on my hand lor!!! and now i can only think of 3 lor, yvonne, tricia and maybe kat? i shall proceed to my office toilet and cry.

yvonne is a damn straight forward person la. (that bitch. hahahahahahha)
tricia is the type where i will pissed her off and she will pissed me off but the next time we see each other nobody remembers anything anymore.
kat is a more special case la. we have same thinking, we belong to same catergory cept she don't smoke la. LOL. so our path nv crossed, and we remain true to each other!! hahahahahahah at least to me la. hur hur

i used to think i have alot of friends, but i guess not so huh?

how many this kind of friends do you have? ever thought bout it before?

p.s: before you go aound telling all your friends what you don't like bout them, pls take note that some people are the "say-say-only kind". they might say they are able to take criticism but they cannot de hor. so observe 1st hor. later lose all ur friends don come bombard my blog hor.

my stuffs are in~!~!~!

2006-04-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

weeee.. my birkis are IN~!~!
but i have got it yet la. will be getting them tml from my fren cum colleague cum gossip partner cum my shifu. hur hur.

bid for a bag in yahoo auction a week ago and it came in today too~!~! *hops ard*
come, i shall share with u my super BEAUTIFUL bag. *take a look and go be jealous* hahahaha

-----------------I SO HATE BLOGGER. IT DOESN'T ALLOW ME TO SHOW THE B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L BAG.---------------------------------

i think blogger is jealous. oh well. i shall upload it tml with my birkis then.

-bag admiring in progress, DND-

lots of things, lots of memories

2006-04-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

had been missing for more than a week. lots of stuff to update.

monday tues thurs was normal working day. nthing much happen to me, nthing much happen ard me.

wenesday was a little more abnormal. i met with my 1st accident, on the road. was too tired after work, took a cab home. while i was about zone off, i heard tyres screeching sound and the next thing i know, my shoulder hit against the front sit. yes, i didn't have my sit belt secure on.

was real lucky that the car behind decide not to let his BMW's logo kiss the taxi's license plate.

i had enuff fats to counter the force thou it was abit painful.

the story ends with me, arriving home safe and paying the taxi fare. i some how can predict that alot ppl will be saying that i am stupid to pay the fare. somehow, i feel i am too, a little stupid at times.

met up with von on friday. had marche, sat and talk. had a heart to heart talk. dearest angeline came. it is always nice to have her ard. thou she always try to be a pilot but then, i still miss her.
proceed to plasma to have some drinks, sing some song. tricia came along.

mummy asked if i can help her to work there again. plasma, a place with too much memories, some which i want to erase off and hope it will nv appear. some, where it will always belong to a special place in my heart. its the place where i change to a person that i don even know who am i anymore. it is also the place where i learn, where i grow to a person i now am. the place is too much for me to bear if i were to work there again.

i think i would need to clarify abit of things here.

i was NEVER a PR kind of status when i worked in plasma. i was purely a waiteress which sometimes sing some songs with the customers or drink a little with the closer ones. mummy appear as one of my manager's friend who occasionaly brought her bunch of girls down to my ex workplace, plasma, after operation hours. she is very friendly but would nv take no as an answer if she asked you to drink.

i vaguely remember she always protects us, waiteress, from some of the drunk customers or would not tolerate any kind of nonsense if anyone were to mistreat us.

soon, she came and become our manageress (is that what u call it?), without her "girls" of cos. she was strict. i hated her. she would get high after all the drinks and start throwing her temper. soon, i quit. due to some personal reason and of cos, her.

saw her last friday and realise she took over plasma already. she is a nice person, as long as she is not drunk.

yes, that was once my life, it was once so complicated. thats the reason why now i adore simplicity.

i finally did it.

2006-04-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

i finally edit all my links. took out those which the site owners no longer update.

put in those which u know, suppose to be there a long time ago.

hahahahhahahaha.

a sense of achievement. *chey*

time for bed.

tml is another working day.

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i am sooooooooo l-a-z-y

2006-03-28T21:26:00.000+08:00

the title, its true.
except dragging my lazy arse to work, which is hardly of a choice, i am too lazy to drag myself to do other stuff. like according to kat's bf, gary, edit my links. hahahahahahahhaha. i will edit it soon.

i'm ordering the birkis soon, those who wants to get it contact me by friday. i'm ordering by monday.

pay coming out this week. hur hur. *hops ard*

wanted to have LJS (long john) for dinner. dear came to fetch me off work, he told me FUNAN IT mall have it, so we walk over. upon reaching funan....

me: where got LJS?!?
him: *push me to my left* there!!!!
me: *looks ard* where got?!? only got taco bell and kfc wat!!!
him: u dunno got taco bell means got LJS de meh? they are joint 1 wad!
me: *gave him the u-are-so-gonna-die look* PLS LOR!!! taco bell, kfc and PIZZA HUT den is joint de lor!!!! (*&!@(*^$!@^(@*&!(@*&!
him: *laugh like a crazy man*
me: *laugh like a crazy women*

-awww... so sad. Anqi going off to australia liao... its on tv nowwwww. she's my fav. young actress btw, so cuteeeeee-

so in the end, we had kfc for dinner. like wat the....

reached home, and went to bed. at 7 plus ok!!!! ahahahhahaa. sleep till the morning. hohoho. *smiles* but i'm still tired... crapz.

*waves to muiling, my new collegue. hehe*

urgh.

2006-03-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

its monday tml. urgh.

need i say more?

shoes anione???

2006-03-24T11:31:00.000+08:00

anyone wan to buy birkenstock shoes anot?
go to footshopping see what u like den tell me k.
i need ppl to buyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
like that we all can get free shipping ma. hahahahahhahah.
*smiles*

staying

2006-03-21T22:47:00.000+08:00

this blog is staying. it will be bout random facts of my life. little little bits. just little snapshots here and there.

went for this training for work purposes. this took up the whole day from 9 to 5.30pm. it is a waste of time. i did not pay any attention frm the start. find it extremely boring. i could have used this period of time and complete the pending projects on hand. argh.

saw something really really beautiful,

this, is the view of ubin's habour.

so nice rite? nobody will really take notice of this lor. its captured by darling sebastian. seb for short. i am so proud of u darling.

my friendship with him goes a long way back. back to the days where MIRC is still the very IN thing. he once, a few years back, accompanied me thru a very hard times. accompanying me at my house. downstairs la. i really appreciate it. up to now. this has always been in my heart.

once awhile when he is in a relationship he will disappear. hahahahahha.

he is someone very special to me.

i'm glad i know him.

to seb: i know life has been unfair to u in alot of ways. but u still have alot of ppl who cares bout u. ppl like me, thou we hardly talk anymore. lastly, wo mei you wang ji ni ok! wo bu shi wang en fu yi de ren hor. hehe

US of A

2006-03-20T09:44:00.000+08:00

was browsing my sitemeter this morning. saw something unusual. 97% of the visitor came frm singapore. 3% came for US of A. north america to be exact. i wonder who it is. but anyway, HI!!!! lol. this is lame.

time for work. i'm in the office btw. haa

general thoughts

2006-03-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

i think i have changed. i have lost the little part of me that wants to attract some attention from ppl. i no longer want ppl to know what i am busy with, things that i have bought, things i did for the day. i no longer have the urge to blog bout happy things i encountered. not that i have lost interest in my blog. but it is just, no longer feel like. i enjoy the private space now, when i'm not blogging.

i now only feel like blogging bout general stuff. stuff like what other people think and what i feel bout their opinion. stuff like what other ppl say that i disagree or agree. but all these things involve bout ppl ard me. and just saying what i feel may and will most probably cause conflict.

over here, i practise censorship. i don blog bout sensitive stuff which might cause conflict.

private blog is up. i'm sorry but address will not be given to anyone. this is the only way i don have to think before i blog.

i'm thinking now whether to close down this blog. oh well, till then.

work

2006-03-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

yes, i am officially a working TEENAGER. hahahahahha. i don care, i am still a teenager. work on the 1st day was fine, nthing much to do. took time off in the afternoon. yes, TIME OFF, on the 1st day of work. cool hor? hahahahha. went to have my medical check up done at Raffles as per requested by the company.

today was worst den yesterday. i started working on a project already. yes, myself. on a small 1 thou. SO SAD CAN?!?!!?! sigh. do work till my eyes popping out, back breaking into half and alot more. my office chair's back rest is spoilt, so there is no more back rest. i am going to change chair tml maN!!! there is a table with no one sitting, so i am going to change with the table's chair! hahahahahahhahaha.

oh, and i am sick. sore throat, cough, slight flu. poor me. i suspect py pass to me 1. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH. she is sick too. hoho.

i am going to slp soon, have to wake up early tml. oh btw, i wun talk much bout my work, cos its abit sensitive. so.. i'm going to be very brief bout my co. in my future entries.

my company!!!

i am going to open another private blog. for myself only. hur hur.

p.s: py's famous words : mei you bu mei de nu ren, mei you lan duo de nu ren, zhi you ai shui de nu ren. direct translation is "there is no ugly women, there is no lazy women, there is only women who loves to sleep." refering to herself. hahahahahhahahahahahahahah

more p.s: i have problem with wad am i suppose to wear the next day. argh!

friday, saturday, today.

2006-03-12T13:20:00.000+08:00

FRIday

nthing much in the morning. met up with von in the evening for dinner and clubbing. went to cineleisure where my brother and another 2 of his friends came and join us for dinner at suki ramen. cabbed to mos.

met a super rude cab driver. he just zoomed off after us asking if we could go all take the same cab. but we stopped him, me and von got into the cab. got to mos, he jus stop there and wait for the cab meter to jump another 10cents before pressing the meter to a stop. pissed off.

there was no queue, cos we reached there damn early la. lol. since its my virgin trip to mos, we explore ard. walk walk here and there and settle down at the R&B corner. went in and out of mos. it took awhile before everyone got into party mode. soon its getting too warm at the R&B side we moved to the main arena.

it was crowded and very loud (maybe bcos we standing in front of the hugh kick-ass speaker). think there is this special DJ from UK name jon carter i think. then there is this "ang moh" who danced tong shou tong jiao, which literally means same hand and leg at the same time. hahahahah. its damn funny lor. we were giggling away. then came the most exciting part of the night.

there is this guy, whom i thought was quite cute at the beginning, was french kissing this girl whom everyone assume they don't know each other at the main dance floor can?!?! den nvm, the guys den realised that the guys hand is IN the lady's PANTS. how's that? cool rite? HAHAHAHHA. the friend of the female did came over and tried to stop the whole thing, but they just continue anyway. oh well. went back to the R&B section as the guy called time out to watching. HAHAHHAHAHA. me and von couldn't stand the heat and came out. and its damn pack in there lor. sat outside waited for the guys to come out.

went to mac cos i am hungry. proceed to esplanade on foot after that. von ended up with blister. THIS IS KARMA. hahahahahahhahahah. cab home. asked the taxi driver where is central mall (my work place) on the way, den he told me there is a temple beside it and the temple very accurate at giving ot 4D numbers 1. hahahahahahahha. i shall go there everyday after work. hahahahahahhahaha.

few of the photos we took. others is in von's phone.

von and my brother. SMALL EYES UNITED!!! LOL.

me and the girl. i dunno whats with her hand.
awww. i love this girl.

SATurday

more of a town day with my love. went to do my nails at PS, went to sit down at NYDC, settle down with cheesecake. walk ard, get my brother's pressie, go home.

TOday

more of rotting at home, get ready with what i need tml for work. ahhhhhhhhhh. so scary. pray that i don fall down tml ok. pls all pray for me. now i am going to dig out all my msmt notes. hiak.

i am still waiting for my tioman photos. so hur hur. wait la.

praying for tml.

underworld = crap.

2006-03-09T18:18:00.000+08:00

nono, not crap as in the show is not nice. the show is nice, gruesome and all. but something i cannot understand.

VAMPIRE CANNOT SEE IN THE DARK DE MEH?????

Selene have to use torchlight in the show lor. -.-. very dumb. even dumb ppl like me thinks it is dumb.

hiak hiak.

soon.

2006-03-09T12:41:00.000+08:00

updates on tioman trip will be coming real soon.

asked favour from a guy who wad with us on the trip, eddie (just got to know his name frm the e-mail he sent me), to send me the underwater photos he took. hahahahhahaha. yes, i am shameless. but that guy looks super friendly ok! but anyway, i've been waiting and waiting for his e-mail since sunday night. was hoping that he will not lose my e-mail cos i write it on a super small paper. i couldn't find paper den ok. not my fault!(quote from renne). so anyway, i used to hardly check my gmail cos its solely for sch purposes. and becos of this, i check my mail like 5 times a day lor. so finally, i receive his e-mail!!!!!!!!!!

he said he will mail me the cd cos the file size is too big for email. hahahhahahahhahahaha. he so nice rite? i suspect he is ngee ann lecturer thou. but anyway, HE IS SO NICE LOR.

me is a happy girl. i got the photos (coming soon) and MY BF IS BACK! he got so tan he look like ah neh already. oh, and he said i can do whatever i want these few days cos i am starting work soon. hehe, so sweet eh?

watched big momma hse 2 with my bro on tues. it is hilarious lor. super funny. but concept is almost the same with big momma hse 1.

going to watch underworld with my boy later. hoho.

suddenly remember py once said to me "everytime can blog long long post, report stuck for dunno how long still cannot come out with the words". hahahahahhaha. but its true la. my mind freeze whenever i have to do report but in the end i will still come out with it la. but i realise i can only do report at ease at home. cannot do it in sch 1, my brain will stop functioning. hoho.

i am bored la. so bored till yesterday i went to friendster and write testimonial for ppl. super bo liao can? but well, today is thursday, so its like 3 more days to the start of work. i am going to enjoy!!!!! i don care. but cannot spend too much money also. haha. must save abit. cos dear now jobless. got anyone got part-time job to intro?

think i shall go play maple le. nthing to do while waiting for my food to arrive. haha. i have a very nice bf. seriously, how many would actually EVERYTIME go buy food for you cos u are too lazy to go down to even eat? yes, me is so lazy 1. and he will grumble grumble but still will go buy. hahhahahahah. maybe i will blog again later? tml? other times? take care ppl.

love,
linz

childish

2006-03-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

hardly anyone i know of will use this word on me.
being childish is just not so me to so many ppl.
i am known childish to my bf only i guess. he always scolds me that.

so i want to be childish now. i don care. cos i am having such a terrible headache now. so terrible that i vomitted, just. and the vomit taste is still lingering in my mouth. and i so hate that. and the main point is, my bf is in m'sia for his sch thingy. and i so need his company now, although i know it is impossible. but still, i am going to be childish and "scream" out loud here that i demand him back!

so here goes...

I WANT MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!!

the headache is getting worst. i am going to hide in my room and cry. i mean it. i feel so terrible.

this is just so me now.

*walks to room*

it is times like this

2006-03-06T18:53:00.000+08:00

it is times like this that i realise that no matter how many friends ppl think i have, i actually am feeling all alone.

yes, i have that little friends. my phone can be quiet for 3 days straight or more. amazing huh?

no, i don need sympathy. no need to call, sms or msn me for the sake of asking how am i.

i think its PMS.

i dunno. maybe its better to be left alone at times.

but it is times like this that make me wonder does ppl think of me at all.

ahhh. i shall go and have dinner, alone. quarrelled with my bf. going to ignore him. i don care.

don bother me, don take pity on me, i'll bite.

jumps ard, hops ard.

2006-03-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

i am leaving singapore in exactly 5 1/2 hours time.
i will begin my journey toward tioman in 5 1/2 hours time.
i am so excited that i am feeling so awake.
i have prepared myself with all that i need.
i am going to do what i do best in the 4 hrs coach ride. sleep.
i am going to soak myself in the sun so that i look more healthy and not so sickly.
i am going to prevent myself from being so dark that i will attend bangra parties when i come back.
i am going to be so close with the fishes. its beautiful.
i am going to relax myself so that i can have the energy to fight another upcoming battle. work.
i am going to update after i come back. i hope.
i am going to pray to god now to hope for sun and more sun.
i am going to try and slp. i hope i can.

i am going to miss a few ppl. don worry girls. lots of catching up to do after i come back.

random updates.

2006-02-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

went for class gathering yesterday, at one of my lecturers house.
yes, i poly class gathering. i look fat in all of the photos which is able to see my body.
but on the other hand, I AM FAT.
whatever.
miss renee wong have not yet send me any photo. so no photos. too bad.

will be hitting the gym real soon. cos me is poor. went out too much.
me is damn nua at home. so aimless.
my dearest is having exams, so practically i am all alone.
guess this will be the period where i have time to myself.

after which i will be heading for tioman for a holiday trip.
and again, me is poor. so can only afford places like tioman.
but me like tioman. the water is clear. the place is so relaxing
lets pray for all sunny day from 3rd - 5th march.

any kind soul is able to lend me their digital camera? i promise to be careful with it.
as if ppl will lend me.

work starting real soon. exam results releasing a week after starting of work.
great. how excited i am.
*jumps ard*

i am bored.
*sulks*

before and after.

2006-02-23T01:44:00.000+08:00

no, i did not go form slimming program. would be glad if anyone would like to sponsor me thou. hahahaha

a few days ago, a rat is spotted at 2nd storey of my blk.
2 days later, a rat is spotted outside my hse.
a day later which is today. i found this outside my hse.
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BABY RATS!!!!

7 of them in total.

unbelieveable.

exams are officially over.

2006-02-21T18:02:00.000+08:00

i expect Ds thou. did very badly.

just pray that i pass so no more poly lifeeeeeee... YEA!!!!!

technorati's top search.

2006-02-21T03:05:00.000+08:00

in a few hours between my visits to technorati, ppl has made Tammy, its top search.

yes yes, its the "NYP scandal". esp after the newapaper article in ST today(20th feb).

and shit lor. ST did not get their facts right. the reporter got various "facts" from the net, thru forums, things ppl blog. lump them together and ta-dah! newspaper article. -.-"

everyone is focusing on the female lead in the video, Tammy. but hello?? people?? there is a monkey looking male actor in there too?? anyone realise??

did anyone even give it a thought that it MIGHT be the guy who wanted to video the freaking process down? but the guy was too poor to have a decent hp with a good video function and thus using her gf's phone?

and when this thing happen, ppl actually said its her fault for having the video in her phone? her phone was stolen for christ sake! and her phone is a personal belonging. no? if it is, then she couldn't keep something personal inside?

i'm not trying to stand up for her here, but come'on. she is like 17? she would have learnt her mistaken by now. have some sympathy and stop flaming her lar. lets see when that happens to ur sister, ur daughter whatsoever. and see if ppl say she deserve it how would u ppl feel?

how would she be able to face the society again. imagine her walking along orchard and ppl will be pointing and say "thats the tammy, the nyp scandal 1." so wad? ask her stay at home and don go out forever?

liu yi dian kou de la.

but of cos, she SHOULD have kept the video clip somewhere more.....personal? i don't know. just somewhere like...home?

some ppl, like my bf says its singapore's paris hilton. home made porno. some even commented that its arousing. THAT IS SO OVER RATED can? half of the time i only can see their bodies, its so freaking small. 1/3 of the time is used to adjust the camera. it is really nothing. furthermore, the girl is over 16 wad. she is, under the law, able to decide for herself to have or not to have sex.

and yes, i have watched the video.

was chatting with kenneth bout this issue. we and thus concluded that, SHE IS SWAY.

and would someone pls focus on the guy?

this society is sick. no?

if a video is being distributed, the main topic is on the girl. den what about the skinny monkey like guy?

if a girl is being molest, the blame is on the girl wearing too little, being too sexy. den what about the molester having low SELF CONTROL?

if a girl is a thrid party in a relationship, ppl will regard girl as a slut, seducing the guy. den what about the guy who is actually the one leading her on? lying to her that he is single?

the same goes for when a family breaks up because of a third party. the wife will blame the other women. but will the wife see the fact that it maybe her husband in fault. no.

in every situation involving a man and a woman, woman is on the losing end. this society will think that the woman is in the wrong.

what a shit society i'm living in.

i is sway.

2006-02-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

was chatting on msn with zhiwei, a classmate of mine, the other day.

the next day i saw him he said that after chatting with him, his comp crash. all files, thousands of photo gone.

was chatting with tricia aka dodo on msn a few days before

saw her online the next day and i asked her

"tot u meeting ur bf?"

"no mood lar. MY COMP CRASH LOR"

... like wth?

i swear i did not send any virus to u all. I SWEAR!!!

and i got scan my comp de leh. no virus detected.

i have a feeling after this post, i and uninstall my msn liao.

shld i say i sway or they sway leh? u decide.

valentine?

2006-02-14T11:45:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day to all.

not going to celebrate coz me and my dearest have test tml.

i finally understood the meaning of every other day can be valentines day.

enjoy ur day ppl.

with love,

linz

chated with god.

2006-02-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

was reading Kenny Sia's blog
saw a link to chat with god. its call igod.
did my chat with god. online that is.
some kind of funny fucker came out with it. its hilarious.

Me:
say hi to santa
God:
" hi to santa".
Me:
god is dumb
God:
I have a lot of Faith in Him, but I never heard He was dumb.
Me:
idiotic moron
God:
Are you calling me an idiot?
Me:
yes
God:
That's interesting.
Me:
of coz it is, u are one
God:
That is something I haven't heard of.
Me:
coz u haven been to earth long enough
God:
Interesting explanation. Interesting gossip: said I haven been to earth long enough.
Me:
have u been to earth?
God:
I don't think I have been there. Where is it.
Me:
its a place where people will either worship u or hate u
God:
earth is a place where people will either worship me or hate me. I suppose that makes sense.
Me:
u are stupid
God:
I will remember you said that when robots take over the World.
Me:
if they do, then u are useless
God:
Let's wait and see what they do.
Me:
so u mean it will happen?
God:
Interesting deduction. Yes I think that is what I meant. Was it not clear?
Me:
so robots are taking over the world?
God:
Woe! Fortunately we have no emotions.
Me:
so it means that doomsday is arriving?
God:
Blimey. Oh I get it.

before some stupid idiots come accusing me of having no respect for ur religion or for god, i would like to clarify that the above is all for the fun of it. and i really do respect every single religion. i don wan get caught by dunno wad organisation and go jail u know. if u cannot find any humor in this post, pls click the little red box with the X button. thank you very much.

oh btw, robots are taking over the world, god said so. so pls, get urself a Hitchhiker's Guide To the Galaxy available at all Kinokuniya. Thankyou.

hahahahhahaha. i can't stop laughing. what the hell is blimey by the way? sounds like some slimy gluey stuff. yucks!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2006-02-09T16:32:00.000+08:00

guest blogger: auntie linz

AIYO!!! its so nice and cooling lor... how to study u tell me?
like that how?!?!? tomolor term test starts leh... liddat how lar.
just now hor, py ask me how to get started with this weather. den i tell her hor, 10pm den start.
hahahahahaha. last minute den got mood mah. correct or not?

after term test then is go out work le leh. furthermore hor, i still considering whether wan to go NUS or not.
not that i cfm plus garentee plus chop will go in lar. but must think mah. ahbo dunno wan to go and-roll or not.
but hor, i think auntie me too old le lar. furthermore hor, result also no ve-lee good. gort 16 C lor. C include C+,C and C- lar. mostly is C+ lar. haiyo. like that how?

still gort tutorial haven finish lor. see lar. what kind of edoocation is this. make me so busy until exam liao still hab not finish my tutorials. think die liao lar.

aiyah. think don bog le lar. go do my tutorial better still.

so how? NUS or no NUS? give some sugestion leh.

me is going ker-lazy lor like that.

no title

2006-02-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

I AM LAZY.

updates....later.

2006-01-30T05:21:00.000+08:00

i am so tired. jus reached home.

will update prolly later when i wake up or soon lar.

cried my heart out in wee hours of chu er. or so called cny day 2.

p.s: want to use this chance to greet everyone happy chinese new year and to all those whom i know but seldom contact or even don't contact anymore, let me know that u people are fine k. drop me a msg or smthing. its a new year u know, must give blessings to all. wish all all the best in the coming year. esp to myself as i will enter into another phrase of my life this year.

take care ppl.

off to lala land.

slp tite.

paint my room scene 1. take 2!

2006-01-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

i am very tired. so going to type much. gonna go rest my legs and my eyes. my leg trembling after climbing up and down the ladder. got cuts and blue black everywhere. crap. those better heal before CNY. if not i have to wear jeans for new year. haa!

did i mention that i have a phobia for climbing up ladders? oh well. i have. there! i mentioned it. i am not afraid of heights. its just that ladders look so freaking weak to carry my weight. and i'm afraid any single shifting of my weight i will be flung off the ladder, hit my head on a sharp edge and lay on the floor bleeding like no one's business.

ahhh.. whatever. i blabbering too much.

has been bz with sch work. staying back in sch till 6 or more its like super normal for me already. i think the amt of time i spend in sch after sch is more den year 1 and 2 add up.

make up class for missed lectures are super normal also. 8-6 timing and super super normal. crap. but anyway, doesn't matter. its better this way. i am so broke. so this is a good way to save money.

i am so broke to the extend that i want to buy DIY dyes to dye my hair i have to think THRICE. read. THRICE. so yep. i am so broke. only had enough for next week's mani and pedicure with yee at bugis. crap. real crap.

my god, i blabber too much today.

so here's the outcome of my room.

my leg is super jelly like now. i wan isqueeze!!!

my greatest achievement.

2006-01-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

update: my bestie py said the picture look like kids drawing. how nice.

i spend my whole sunday on...

CLEANING AND PAINTING MY ROOM.

it is super super rare that i clean my room ok! those who know me well, will know that my table is see no table top 1. sad but i still have to say. my table is see no table top no more!!!!

i doodled this.

and i did this.

i did 2 of the above. and it become this!

i painted this on the wall with the guidance from daddy.

this is part 1. part 2 will be done next week.

i took 2 hours to draw on the wall. its harder to draw den expected.
i took 3.5 hrs to paint the picture. its harder den drawing it.

who the fuck say painting was easy? go jump down pls.

Reviews.

2006-01-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

yep, went to watch memoirs of geisha yesterday night.

and is FREAKING NICE.

i loved the way Gong Li played her part. a geisha who refused to have a danna coz her heart have someone else.

i loved the way Zhang Ziyi played her part. a girl who give all out to be a geisha to meet the one she love.

the movie is just so nice. i wanna go watch again. anyone up with the offer??

happy = broke?

2006-01-13T21:12:00.000+08:00

i am here excusing myself from going out for the following reasons:

i am busy with school.
i need more time with my family.
i need to save.
and more imptly. i am broke.

went to walk around town yesterdae, with yee.
was actually accompany her hunt for her shoes and for some cny clothes.
ending up with an adidas jacket. the one dear like so much he kept asking whether he shld buy it the day before.
it's rare that i can caught something he really like.
and due to the fact that i can't find the ESPRIT jacket i like, i have a sudden impulse to dote on him that i went into the adidas store at hereen and bought it at a price that if it were for me, i would need a couple of weeks to think bout it.
i am not a rich girl. to some out there, an adidas jacket wld be nthing. to me, it's a medium huge thing.
so yes, i bought it.

in conclusion, dear is a happy boy and me? a broke little girl.

p.s: loved the weather today. loved the sun, loved the breeze.
p.p.s: i wanna watch memoirs of geisha. maybe gonna catch it later.

ktv again...

2006-01-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

went ktv last friday. went ktv yesterdae. sang till 4am. LOL!

weather has been very cold this few weeks. am freezing to death in the ktv room.

and i conclude that KBOX sux! i still prefer PARTYWORLD. for the following reason:

1. they don't give u a frigging small room for 4 people.

2. their remote control don't work.

3. the frigging ventilation system in the room don't work. i was SMOKED yesterday.

4. the TOP HITS consists of funny funny songs that i nv see before. like that very hard to find song u know.

5. they shift us from a frigging big room to a frigging small room. AND! we had to select songs AGAIN.

bcoz of these 5 reasons, i hereby conclude that partyworld is better.

i need to watch tv. so look at the photos time!

oh. before that, BEWARE!!! i look ugly in the photos. no makeup nthing AND with specs. i look like ghost. so do not proceed on after 10pm. i don't want to have ppl sueing me for causing nightmares.

the pics are in random.

ooooo.. my brother. so into the song. LOL.

my super act-shuai fren, ZY.

i like this photo. coz i don't look yellowish. LOL!!

start to ki siao liao.

a couple of me and dear. erm, half face bf. did not delete coz i think i look quite goo in these photos. LOL!!! cept for a tad bit of yellowish.

crazy siblings.

dear is tired.

i look fat. damn!
super act cute. hiakz. ZY ah ZY...*shake head*

me and dear. he still looks sleepy. coz of his small eyes lar. lol.

ending with the picture of me!

conclusion?

1. no more ktv session for me in near future. as in a mth at least.

2. no more spending of money. must save for holiday.

3. i look yellowish. maybe i'm sick or whatsoever.

4. i look fat.

5. i love my bro, my bf and my fren.

p.s: i learn this from zy: tian ling ling, di ling ling, wo men yao qing cai yi ling!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

a weekend to celebrate.

2006-01-07T13:53:00.000+08:00

this weekend is a weekend for celebration!!!!! coz i completed and submitted my FINAL YEAR PROJECT. it is complete and submit ok! i am very very proud of myself. haha

i hereby present u my fyp!

4 books!

the thickest!
my fav. book! coz its thinest. LOL!!!

after that we played DONKEY since we haf nthing to do durin lunch time.

have not been a very good day for me. entered this day crying.

had a real bad dream this morning. i was so traumatise that even after i woke up, i can't stop crying. dear tried to calm me down before going to work and put me back to bed.

its been real long since i had such a bad dream. and its so real. i can still feel it even as i talk bout it now. *shivers*

going to fully relax this weekend.

its going to be a happy happy weekend. hoho.

i am going to forget bout the dream.

new year's eve.

2006-01-01T14:54:00.000+08:00

new year's eve day was spend at dear's hse. having BBQ at his balcony.

the view from his balcony.
BBQ STARTS

awwww.. look at the wings. damn nice rite? want to know the way to get a nice golden brown BBQ wing? easy! but those type of marinated wings which look like those below. BBQ it with a little honey. and tada!

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... look at the hot dogs. sooooooooooo niceeeeeeeeeee

and my fav. prawns.

went home at around 10+ pm. at ard 11, dear said he wanted to see fireworks. so off we go!

there is a terrible jam everywhere. esp on the way to esplanade. when we were abt to reach esplanade, the jam was so bad that it wasn't even moving. so we alight the cab and walk.

now i understand why they always say try to take public transport. coz in an event of a terrible jam, u can abandon the taxi and walk, but u cannot abandon ur car. hahahahahhaha

and we saw the fire works! weeeeee. very very nice.

urgh! UGLY PICTURES. grrrrrr..

went to boat quay after the fire works. with my brother and ex collegue. reached home at ard 4 plus. bedded at 5.20am.

new year resolutions post are below. hoho.

once again, wish all earthling a happy new year and all the best throughout the year.

new year resolutions

2006-01-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR GREETINGS TO ALL EARTHLINGS!!!!
a new year and time to set my resolutions!

resolutions:

slim down. (every year, its always appear on my resolutions. but seems that i nv got to fulfill it, 'cept doing the total opposite, get fat)
get my ~~fucking~~ diploma.
go to work everyday.
DO NOT be late for work.
save money.
get into a local university.
continue to work if i don't get into 1 or get into a part- time degree course and work.
try not to job hop.
spend more time with family.
spend more time with my love.
be less lazy.
keep my room clean.
get my driving license.(will have to pospone if i get into the uni. no more income)
quit smoking.
curse and swear lesser.
control my temper, esp during work.
treat my dear frens better.

yep! thats my new year resolution. freaking long list. wonder how many can i achieve. haa!

was talking to PY on msn yesterday. slightly before new year, i gave her my new year greetings which goes...

at the time 00.00, we are graduating in THREE mths time and i shall no longer see u in sch, BUT IN A WORKING ENVIRONMENT!!!! AREN'T THAT INTERESTING!!!! SO EXCITED!!!! *HUGS*

den she replied.

thou its getting more sian seeing u almost everyday in school, but its a joy to work with u. thus to bimbo lin, from yee, with love, u're the best. happy advance 2006

i just realised, i did not greet her happy new year in my new year greeting. LOL! but nvm, i make it up to her by bringing fireworks to the sick girl from esplanade.

sometimes, we (my frens and i) are so sweet that it makes me sick. LOL!

simple xmas eve, peaceful xmas.

2005-12-25T18:49:00.000+08:00

xmas eve was simple. went to wait for dear to off work. took cab to marina square. had dinner at a japanese resturant. *yep. did not go for steamboat animore* oh, the jap resturant named WARAKU. very nice food, with superb service. its located near the taxi stand. go try! hee

walk ard marina sq for awhile, came back to westmall on bus. not sure how long the journey take or whether is there traffic jam. coz i slp throughout the whole journey.

settled down at coffee bean. had coffee and dear bought me log cake! hohoho.

went to watch movie after that. watched narnia. i loved the lion!! but i still would prefer king kong. awww... king kong, my new hero! lol.

xmas was spent at home slping whole day. coz dear is working and nobody jio me out. so.... slept the whole day. hoho.

~*~let me steer away from the joyful xmas.~*~

i seriously hate girls who give guys fake hope when they know it is impossible between she, herself and the guy.

when one of the person to like her is actually Someone Close to Me. (SCM) and i have another fren who likes her too.

my this fren start to like her 1st. and she did say that being with my fren is jus a matter of time. den god noes when, she and SCM became close. she gave hope by calling SCM names like baby etc. to cut the story short, she is now AGAIN giving hope to my fren. and a couple of days back, she said to another fren of mine that neither one of them got chance to be with her. WTF rite?

yes, the only name i can think of is slut for her. i don like ppl ard me getting hurt. esp SCM. he is someone really close. SCM is not only a fren. so pls understand why i am so agitated.

who does she think she is? toying with ppl feelings. she is jus a ger who always get herself drunk when she go clubbing. and hugging people when she is drunk. i personally have not seen this scene. but it has been confirm with a couple of sources.

yes, i don't deny the guys are dumb. but pls, if ppl treat u whole-heartedly, if u don't like them, just say! don toy with their feelings. don play ard with them. don't treat them like a fool.

i am really speechless by wad that girl did. why does such people even exist in this world? grrrr. am so so angry now. i shall not let her spoil my xmas. i shall continue to hate her guts tml.

OMG. I HATE HER GUTS.

*p.s: the news just reported that hospital are serving xmas feast today. wth. ppl in hospital live better den me! i having fried hokkien mee for dinner. damn!

hungry = angry

2005-12-24T14:20:00.000+08:00

i am so so angry. coz i am so so hungry.
i wanna cook. maggie mee lar.
as i was bout to boil water, a FUCKING COCKROACH taking his own sweet time and crawl by my side.
I HATE COCKROACH. esp after watching king kong. and i can't get myself to kill it. SHIT.

so pls, after i died, pls cremate me. i don't wan cockroaches or maggots crawling in and out of my skull or wad so ever.

so back to the cooking.
i threw my pot and ran out of the kitchen.
close the kitchen door. later the disgusting thing fly out how?
called my mum and ask her hurry back.

AND NOW!
i am so so hungry. grrrr.

I HATE COCKROACH.
ESP WHEN I AM ALONE AT HOME!
FUCK!

ups, downs.

2005-12-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

so much to blog, so mani things to say, i dunno where to start.

life has been bz.
went to msia on wenesday.
realise there is nthing to buy there.
price is almost the same as singapore.
cept for the shoes and guys stuff.
bought cigg and dvds.
skirt, printed tee. nthing much.

pepper, my hermit crab died.
look like he and chilli fight.
but they are suppose to be friendly creatures.
*shrugs*
i don like the feeling of don't know why it died.
dear wanna go buy another 1. to replace pepper.
but i refuse. it has diff meaning already.

FYP deadline is closing in so soon. craps.

this week is E-LEARNING WEEK.
i practically hate it to the core.
i don understand shit bout wad is suppose to be learn by ourselves.
i miss my lecturers on the 1st day of e-learning already.
and SP is dumb. they make the whole sch e-learning week the same.
flood the server and we can't access shit.
they shld seriously consider diff sch haf diff e-learning week.

xmas eve is more or less set.
my boy and me is going to bugis to eat steamboat.
maybe movie after that.

actually decided to go MOS today.
but the music is just not so for me.
saw the cd on sale. heard it. it sucks.
so decided not to go.

an advance merry xmas ppl.
xmas mood is just not there for me this year.

i think i practically hate xmas this year.
the busiest xmas i ever had.
projs, homework..
how to enjoy u tell me?

happenings.

2005-12-17T18:21:00.000+08:00

me, von, py went to....
Yes, the hottest topic ard with the exception of opening of MOS. The balcony.
my lime magarita and py's screaming multiply orgasm. *uh uh uh ohhhhhh*
me and py. we are jus so pretty. hiakz.
py with her *uh uh uh ohhhhh*
i am so beau-ti-fullllllll..
my lime magarita. niceee okie.
oooo. the best part of the Balcony. the sofa other den the freaking jacuzzi in the middle of no where.*forget take pics lar, shiat*. abit dark. u can lie on it okie!! its that big.
do u feel the electronic waves my beau-ti-fullll eyes are emitting? *zap-zap*
ooooo...py's BUTT.
the swing CHAIR!!! i love it! but later on found out its super duper scary to sit on it. feels like its gonna topple over anytime!!
another swing chair. THIS IS SUPER DUPER COMFY. i wan this in my hse!!!!
me in the swing chair.
py in the swing chair!!!
me and py in the super duper comfy swing chair
we are so beau-ti-fulllllll

after this, we left balcony. balcony not as fun as i tot it wld. but the service is SUPERB. the staffs are super friendly. *thumbs up*

we den decided to WALK, yes, WALK, to esplanade.
the xmas deco at centerpoint. M&M's train, the ferris wheel and the M&M's hse!!

later on at esplanade. there's this art exhibition *shit, i took bout 1 min to come out with the word exhibition.*
the we went to the river side to sit sit talk talk. to 4 pm am ok!

i hereby swear to save money and buy a farking digital camera. damn! look at the quality of the pics. grrrr.. ROARRRRRRRRR

all i want for xmas is......

2005-12-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

ONE OF THESE!!!!!

tiffany's atlas series open ring!! silver or gold is nice. LOL!!!

or if u are feeling too rich, u can...

BUY ME EITHER ONE OF THESE! lol.

or maybe this!

aiyah, i noe nobody rich enuff to buy for me 1. LOL!!!

but anyway, aren't all these a beauty??? omg.. *fall in love*

*p.s: war put on hold till after tests.

i declare war!

2005-12-10T01:18:00.000+08:00

i hereby declare blog war with yee-the-biatch.

she freaking lied to me! and to think i actually believed her! and she scold me stupid!

wad kind of fren!

u got urself into a war!

i'll dig up all ur ugly photos and show everyone!

*EVIL LAUGHTER!*

sometimes my friends just amuse me.

2005-12-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

Linzzy says:
omg.
Linzzy says:
don tell me u are pregnant
yee says:
fwak
yee says:
pregnant..
yee says:
SMELL WOOD ar!!!
yee says:
lol
yee says:
da gai lai seh..
Linzzy - bath says:
TOUCH WOOD LAR
Linzzy - bath says:
lol
yee says:
purposely don wan touch leh..
yee says:
i wan smell..
Linzzy says:
later kena ah!
yee says:
i find it will be more effective..
Linzzy says:
super big secret?
yee says:
smell n touch..
Linzzy says:
hmm..u are a guy once?
Linzzy says:
lol
yee says:
im once a he-she
Linzzy says:
u are dead
Linzzy says:
i'm blogging this

this all started with a huge big secret she has. and she has finally admit, she is once a he-she! my 1st HE-SHE friend. i will treasure u darling. i will tell NO ONE! definitely NOONE! u can count on me.

baker me!

2005-12-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

i am so excited i haf to blog!

i successfully baked my very 1st cake today! and it taste superb!

due to dear keep complaining that i nv cook nv do anihting for him to eat, finally now i haf!

brother came back with ingredients and recipe. he made his own. and me? after dear's constant nagging i began to experiment with another recipe. and VOLA! my cake is done. with the help of mummy and dear. haha.

1st try was like this!

den i got lazy as there is so so much left, i became creative and....

haha, ugly but nice!

lalalalala, hohohohoh...

gonna go bath now. cake is harder to bake den i expected. sticky like hell now.

nites ppl

linz = lian?

2005-12-09T12:57:00.000+08:00

i've jus cut my hair!!! lol.

mom: u jus rebond ur hair and now u cut, wad u thinking? *screams*

i jus cut my fringe leh. hiakz.

so now i look like this!

py says i don suit this look. coz i very mina (ah lian) style.

lao niang bu zhuo ah lian heng jiu le hor!
direct translation: i nv be ah lian very long already hor!

to prove her wrong, i can be very innocent 1.. u see...

not innocent enuff ah? k lor...

like that can?!? doey-eye look hor! can liao rite? and no, i did not cry. my eyes is tired from all the studying thats why it looks reddish. its freaking 1 am after all the reading k! what u expect.

i am lazy to update the previous post. wanna know the more bout the outing with py and renee, pls proceed here

as for the wedding, i upload more photo for u all k? all pretty girls hor!

nah, don say don haf lar.

back to studying liao. test at 3! wish me luck!

random updates.

2005-12-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

2nd dec - my bday celebration

my bday cake. sponsor by my ever dearest and sweetest bf. SWENSEN ICECREAM CAKE!

me and my cake.
me, my cake, my family and my darling tricia.

went to tricia house after that to prepare for tml's BIG day.

3rd dec - darling Jamelle's wedding.

the COUPLE.

Me and melle. OMG! my face look so freaking BIG! details will be updated shortly. am too tired.

6th dec - shopping spree!

went out with yee and renee aka zhu ma. destination: raffles city, city link & suntec.

Yee in the children's all time fav. musical-moveable-car (MMC) *chiong ah!*

this is my MMC OK!

stuff that i bought.
a new bag! the old one was spoilt. it comes with a small pouch! bought gold coz it CHRISTMAS SEASON!

2 pouches. one for ciggys another 1 for phone.

don't u jus love the design? its my fav. combination of pink and black!

i am soooooooooo into lacy stuff nowadays.

last but not least, a hair clip!

oh! did i mention? chilli(my hermit crab) changed its shell! and so did yee's! on the same day! haa.

lots of funny things happen. update again tml or something. now, off to bed!

i hereby announce...

2005-12-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

I AM FREAKING 19 18 YEARS OLD!

no fancy bday, no bday cake, no meeting up with frens.

jus a simple bday with my family and my dearest.

i am flooded with homework.

lots to be done.

my fyp is due in a months time.

my mind is not working.

i can't think, i can't do anything.

i hate my bday this year.

i am too stress.

freaking hate it when my mind is not working.

I NEED TO COMPLETE MY WORK! argh!

random thoughts.

i dunno what i am typing.

its so messy.

happy bday to me.

i suspect that me, the bday girl, is very much in depression now. thank you very much sp.

my best birthday present...

2005-11-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

is upon receiving this!

A SNAIL MAIL!

FROM DAVIS LANGDON & SEAH (DLS) SINGAPORE PTE LTD.

DLS, Singapore biggest QS firm and its also the 1st! and they are offering a job as an assistant QS. in other words, i have secure myself with a job even before i GRADUATE!

so so happy! wonderful things does happen to me afterall!

2 days and counting down!!

dear's bday present is...

2005-11-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

A HERMIT CRAB. 2 to be exact.

i have names them black pepper and chilli.

here are their home.

their hut.

meet Black Pepper.

hi all, i'm black pepper. i jus like climbing trees like yee.

meet Chilli.

hi all, i'm Chilli. i'm more friendly compare to Black Pepper. He's still shy.

LET GO OF ME!!!!

home sweet home. *phew*

happy bday dear!!!!!!!!! hope u like the present!!!

p.s: thanks yee for letting me know of this wonderful gift, without u, there will be no Black Pepper and Chilli.

i jus realise...

2005-11-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

that i wun turn pixel when i scan the neo prints. so...

TADA!

can tell how crazy we went rite? lol. bunch of crazy office lady unite!

haven been..

2005-11-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

blogging very much. due to lack of time. the same old stuff that is bothering me, keeping me busy. and i am sick.

went to interview today. a REAL job interview. those which after i graduate i can work that type. and no, i have neither resign nor being sacked from ikea. i am still working there.

have left my options open. (i still haf a few interviews coming up). but the environment there is nice, at least the boss is.

this interview left me thinking bout options for my further studies. should i go NUS? or shld i go SIM and take up part time for 2 1/2 years? had a nice chat with my mum and she said the decision lies with me. i want to clear off my debt (the sch fees she paid for me using her CPF) as soon as possible. so i will definitely need a JOB.

went to bugis after the interview. took NEOPRINTS with annisa, renee and yee. yes, NEOPRINTS. its been years since i last took that. had alot of fun but the PRINTS are too small. thus scanning it will make us all have pixelled face. LOL.

i am seriously in no mood to blog. quarrel with my love. he said " i dunno wats wrong with u, we are like drifting apart." have been asking myself whether is it true. and i realise the answer is yes, we are drifting apart thou we live together. now the question is why.

is it bcoz we see too much of each other?
is it bcoz of living together we take the time being together for granted?
is it bcoz....

there is too many whys. too many is it bcoz.. so whats the problem? i will find out and solve it.

lastly, i shall show u ppl a fat-cute-chubby me and the ever-so-thin-'til-so-irritating yee to lighten up the post abit. better den nthing lar hor.

p.s: to the person behind: i did not do it on purpose. i am not a stalker whom like to take picture of u. don worry, i'm pretty and harmless

i am...

2005-11-09T02:01:00.000+08:00

DYING FROM FYP.

AND.

I HAVE REBONDED MY HAIR.

p.s: sry for the caps. i am too stress. -bites everyone-

u may not have realise...

2005-11-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

that some of the entries in my archives are gone, gone for good.

a few days back, dear said he does not wan anithing from the past to appear again.he was refering to my archives, the posts bout me and him. and i agreed, without thinking.

but after thinking bout it for a moment, i requested to dear whether could i not delete. its not as thou it mean anithing to me anymore. its just that its my thoughts at that time, and i just want to read back and know what was i thinking at that time, how do i feel etc.

but eventually i gave in. i agreed to delete whatever post he wants me to if it can give him a sense of security. i mean, he's my boyfriend now right? wad else matter?

but this makes me realise, how attached i grown to be with this blog. i couldn't sleep that nite. i kept thinking. and i swear, i will not delete another entry from my blog again. its like tearing pages from your diary. i am not mad at dear or anithing, i did it willingly. but, i will not do it again, coz its my thing, my blog, my diary.

was just reading through the other not deleted post, and i realise, i actually don remember some of the things i wrote down at all. i'm glad i started, started to blog, started to pen down my thoughts, coz i'm a forgetful person. i hope next year at this time when i read my blog, i and recollect some of the memories, read my thoughts and see if i have grown up, or see if i have changed.

i am so tired and busy nowadays, with sch and public holiday in between. keep making mistake at work. getting pissed off by the slightest thing.

i need to do my fyp now. i shall blog bout something more light hearted tml.

as for this post, it is not a complain. it is just something i want to let myself remember. do not judge my boyfriend due to this, he is a wonderful guy. he really is.

End of Holiday, Today.

2005-10-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

to me, today marks the end of holiday. why? coz i'll be working tml and the day after. and sch starts on monday, rest on tuesday, continues on wenesday, and rest on thurs. stupidity.

i mean, why can't they push back a week? wad harm will it do rite?

lets see wad haf i accomplished this holiday.

NOTHING.

i have practically done nthing this holiday. damn. oh, maybe leveled a little in maple. thats all.

did not sleep well last night. due to the fact that the blardy stray cats are busy reproducing MORE stray cats. yesterday night was the 3rd time this week that they are trying to reproduce. trying very hard indeed. think bout it, they have sex more den some singaporeans do! *laugh* hmm.. i wonder whether its the same cats. lol. it seems that they are having a GREAT time. i live on the 8th floor by the way, and i can HEAR. loud and clear. how interesting.

how to sleep well at nite with the cats making love downstairs u tell me.

updates!

2005-10-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

hoho, update time.

hmm...nthing much to update also leh. sianz.

went to sentosa with von and yee on tues. gave my DI YI CHI to them. hur hur. photos is being uploaded to here. but pls becareful coz u will see the fat pig(me) in bikini. enter at ur own risk!!!

some frens came over to my hse to play games yesterdae. all the way till 6 in the morning. lol. crappy.

oh aniway. half of this post is dedicated to my dearest peiyi aka xiao luo aka my enemy aka ~~shortie~~ yee.(opps. i ain't tall either. but 2 cm makes a big difference also k!!!)

HAPPY BDAY XIAO LUO AKA DEAREST PEIYI AKA ENEMY AKA ~~SHORTIE~~ YEE

WO HUI YONG YUAN AI NI DE!!!!

KISS KISS!!!

lol.

p.s: yee: i noe u gonna come kp at my tagboard. lol. wadever.

hahahahhaa

2005-10-20T18:44:00.000+08:00

i found it! i found the simple skin!!! hahahaha.

oh ya, a few things to update..

1) my pimple has healed!!
2) i passed all my exams!!!
3) my bday coming? LOL!

i'm crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

stupid ppl. argh

2005-10-20T17:20:00.000+08:00

i would like to annouce that i FRIGGING HATE STUPID PEOPLE!

u people would already know that i work in ikea as cashier, right? so its common of the cashiers to ask if u are a ikea member. (if u shopped there before u should know) and its just a yes or no answer. but some people could come up with something really..u know.. INTERESTING.

situation 1

ME: hello, ikea member?
customer: erm.. i forget to bring, can haf discount anot?
ME: the member card is for accumulate points only, not for discount.
customer: like that ah? ok lor. nvm.

... DON TRY BLUFF UR WAY THRU FOR DISCOUNT CAN?!?! omg. wadever.

situation 2

ME: hello, ikea member?
customer: eh... NTUC member can or not?
ME: HUH?

... DOES THIS FRIGGING LOOK LIKE NTUC TO U? buy wood go home cook ah? *duh*

situation 3

ME: hello, ikea member?
customer: *no reaction*
ME: 'cuse me, ikea member?
customer: *no reaction*
ME: member mdm/sir?
customer: huh? u talking to me ah? nono, no member

WTF? *speechless*

SEE? i frigging hate stupid ppl. its like u write the word stupid across ur forehead.

oh aniway, i been search for a simple and plain blog skin for 3 days. AND I CAN'T FIND 1 I LIKE! anione wanna make for me? lol.

alone

2005-10-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

once again, i shall keep myself away from the outer world. outer world as in go shopping, go ktv, blah blah..u get the idea.

WHY?

coz i have this HUGE pimple that haven't recover yet.

WHY?

coz my auntie jus came to visit me.

WHY?

coz i wanna save money.

WHY?

coz i wanna go holiday with my boyyyyyyfriend.

thats why.

so friends, sorry if i reject ur offer to go out. its money matters. LOL!

i don mind if u ppl wanna pop by and play mahjong or smthing.
i don mind if u ppl wanna pop by and play monopoly, be it delux version or singapore version. i've been like playing monopoly for the past 1 week. how nice its that?
i don mind if u ppl miss me and we can haf coffee somewhere near at KOPITIAM.

i don mind if u guys don mind. LOL!

found.

2005-10-11T12:41:00.000+08:00

i have found dear and he is safe and sound.
he waited in sch from 9 till now.
he's a wonderful boyfriend and i know it.

since i let him waited so long, i shall announce...

I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!

editor's note: muahahahahahha

MISSING

2005-10-11T11:33:00.000+08:00

1) dear was suppose to visit his mum in the morning, got out of house at 6.55am
2) i was suppose to wake up and 7.30am and prepare to go school
3) dear was suppose to fetch me from school to home.
4) dear was suppose to fetch my brother to work and return the car.

BUT!!!

1) dear did wake up and visit his mum, he did not bring phone along, left it at home
2) i overslept and did not go to school
3) i suppose dear did went to school and wait for me
4) i was home thus i don need to be fetched home
5) my brother went to work himself.

in conclusion,

MY BF IS MISSING!

he has been missing for 5 hours now and i miss him badly.

anyone who spot him anywhere pls gimme a call, thanks.

editor's note: LOL! this is lame

nbz...

2005-10-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

liew... was so sway on wenesday.. wan play maple it was down on maintenance. wan blog but blogger ki siao. damn sway lor. furthermore, i got a freaking huge big pimple lor!

since i realise i haven put up pictures for so freaking long, i shall put pictures today!!! weee!! and let u all see the ugly me (bcoz of the pimple lar! nbz). make sure u not eating k. i am not kidding bout the freaking BIG pimple. it is really BIG. the BIGGEST in my whole entire life. up to now lar. and it jus keep on swelling.

SEE! i not lying, freaking big rite. i am SO ugly *pouts* (damn bimbotic hor?)

BUT!!! nevertheless, i am still pretty with the wonders of makeup. u see...

SEE! pretty rite? lol

who say i ugly jus now de? nbz

DIAO U AH!

to those who thinks i am pretty,

let u see my pretty eye and.... DIAN SI NI!!! muahahaahahah

updates!!!!

2005-10-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

i am back, earlier den expected. jus reach home from "after-work-supper" haa!

was supposed to go to madame wong on friday. wanted to see the new R&B corner. reached there but CLOSE LOR!!! KNN!!! but lucky is yvonne sign us in de. so we decided to go to central mall. NO! not momo. but a KTV pub. but in the end the fickle minded me decide to go mr bean to nua, rot and haf supper. so off we went to mr bean. went there to sit, nua-ed and gossip! lol.

went home and KO-ed. next day wake up off to work! and yada yada...same lar everyweek.

today: bad day. fyp dateline due tml - un-finished. quarrelled with dear. wadever.

now: gonna go do fyp. my life is so so so so boring. damn!

WEEEEEE!!!

2005-09-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!!!
went back to sch today. for proj.
tml? for proj. BUT!!!!
MDM WONG FOR TML NITE!!!
weeeeeeee....
with dear, and my clubbing kahkis!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAAH!!!!

let me count....how long haven i been clubbing? hmm..mths and mths...
i'm gonna enjoy myself tml....
fun fun FUN!!! weeeee..

so so excited. muahahahha

HAHAHA

2005-09-28T08:04:00.000+08:00

I AM GOING TO SCHOOL FOR MY LAST PAPER LIAO!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAH!!!

p.s: i am over stress and lack of sleep. 2 hours of sleep is never enuff. pardon me my dears.

pissed. freaking pissed.

2005-09-27T15:22:00.000+08:00

i officially annouced that i am freaking PISSED!
there is actually 2 houses doing their renovation on a freaking same day!
and that day marks the day of "the day before the worst theory paper ever"
great.
so i got out of the bed at 10am! freaking 10am can?!?!
when i jus decided to go over to my bf house to study, they stopped working.
so i was thinking maybe i shld catch some sleep first.
bout 1/2 an hour later THEY START WORKING AGAIN!!!!!
so i just lay there and rest... till they stop working...
so i got my books, out to the living room to study...
AND WAD? THEY START WORKING AGAIN LOR!!!
wad the hell... pissed. freaking pissed. argh.

hmmm....

2005-09-22T02:00:00.000+08:00

ooo...its been a mth since i last updated my blog. so i think i shall blog. lol.

love talking to a fren of mine. lets name her dodo. lol.

everything was fine till our conversation reached an equation which got me laughing out very very loud.
the conversation goes...

dodo: clever wife + clever husband = happiness
dodo: stupid wife + clever husband = wai yu (got affair lar!)
dodo: clever wife + stupid husband = bankruptcy

*pause*

dodo: stupid wife + stupid husband = ???
linz(me) : stupid and stupid become like dodo lar. extinct.
dodo: hahahahhaha

*the conversation continues...*
she officially announce she want to sleep liao....

dodo: LIM PEI AI KI SIO HONG KI LIAO..
linz: sio HONG ki huh.
dodo: ya lar.. hong ki sounds nicer. u still smoking?
linz: ya..i still sio hong ki
dodo: we so poor thing hor, wan quit cannot quit, so miserable. going to $15 liao leh.
linz: ya lor. jus like dengue fever wad.
dodo: y?
linz: coz they wan get rid also cannot get rid wad!
dodo: f*ck u lar.
linz: true wad!
dodo: so scary, if i get dengue how ah?
linz: den i go hospital see u lor
dodo: that day i got fever, tot i get dengue, heng subsides le.
dodo: wah liew...dengue will die de leh...
linz: die den i burn more cigg for u lor.
dodo: ... burn cigg for wad! burn money ma, den i go buy.
linz: why? u scared the cigg lao hong izzit?
dodo: wad lan hong? .... tok in simple hokkien can?
linz: LAO HONG LA!
dodo: ahhahahahaha..i saw lan hong.
dodo: my mind corrupted liao...
linz: if cigg will lan hong die liao lor!
dodo: wahahahahahha

*editor's note: i am lazy. the conversation continues...

p.s: the reason why hoon ki is call HONG ki is bcoz my dear dodo is lousy in hokkien. and thus there is once she said with her badly pronouced hokkien that she wanna sio HONG ki which got me laughing in cab frm mr. bean to home. nbz.

with more frens like her, i think i will die from laughing too much.

feel so uneasy

2005-08-25T00:19:00.000+08:00

i know i have complete my share,
i know that i can go and rest after so many nights,
i know i can continue my other stuff tml,
i know i can finally shut my eyes early for once,
but, what is this uneasiness in me?

i am afraid.
afraid i might not do well in school,
afraid i might not be able to hand in my assignment in time,
afraid i might not be able to cope with the stress and break down,
afraid i might forget to do my stuff and causing trouble for my group member,
afraid of studying,
afraid of being late for school,
afraid of my fyp submission date,
afraid of tutorials,
afraid of projects being given again,
afraid of not being able to graduate,
afraid of graduating,
afraid of not knowing what to do or where to go after my graduation,
afraid of losing everyone whom is so dear to me bcoz of my busy schedule,
afraid i will do something wrong when working when weekend comes,
afraid of so much more.

i am scared. i might breakdown.

i am so tired. what have i not completed? what can i do to help?

i am getting forgetful, very forgetful.

money spend on taking cab to sch coz i'm late is costing a bomb.
i must wake up earlier. i must complete whatever i can.

i wanna study somemore.
but i'm afraid i can't get into any school.
i wanna further study.

i just wanna rest.

sigh...

finding kenny sia.

2005-08-23T19:43:00.000+08:00

most of the people (blogger) shld be familar with the famous kuching blogger kenny sia

he is funny, witty and xtremely cute. and i found something hilarious.

mission for today: finding kenny sia.

some of the neopets games. pics from py's blog. find kenny in the photo!!!

for those who dunno how kenny look like....

p.s the one on the left.

answer:

abit blur thou. but i do find them with xtreme resembles.

espcially if kenny were to ask those cartoon artist we have in our orchard road to draw him, i guess he will probably turn out like this! *laugh*

wanted to blog so so much.

2005-08-23T18:37:00.000+08:00

sometimes i have so much to say.
sometimes nobody listen.

sometimes i wanted to blog so much.
sometimes i just have to give my projects the priority.

sometimes i wish so much to complete whatever i haf on hand.
sometimes it jus keeps coming in.

sigh.

have been busy submitting projs and receiving projs. sleeping at 1 - 2 am, waking in the morning to go school, sits in class for lecturers and tutorials, meet up for proj discussion or meet up with lecturers, go home, do projs and the cycle continues.

i am so tired. i just hope that i can have a week. jus one week to let me rest. no school, no projs, no work. jus sleep, jus watch tv, jus enjoy myself. is it possible? i don't think so.

going to graduate next year march (if everything goes well). am i going to work? continue to study? what path will i take? this is something that has be bothering me. this is one decision i have to make which is going to have a big impact on my life. how?

sigh.

love,
hanlin

sigh...

2005-08-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

sigh... still so busy...#$@%#$^$&

so many stuff to do.

2005-08-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

i've gone missing from my blog for like forever.
national day jus passed. and i'm still the same. working studying and rotting.
'cept for the fact that i've been bleeding like nobody's business.
my auntie came to visit and my nose have been bleeding.
sun bled twice. once at work and once at home.
monday bled once. on mrt on the way to sch. i guess i might haf scare the hell out of the 2 malays infront of me. LOL!! but hey! i don wish for it to happen too k. before i know it the blood has already dripped on my shirt.
all was fine till JUST NOW. my nose bleed again. for no freaking reason.
if flu is called running nose, den i guess mine is called dying nose. or shld i say dying person (which is me) instead.
i might have some kind of sickness. maybe i lack of red blood cells (which i suspect long ago coz i always haf bruises) or maybe, too lil white blood cells resulting all xtra red blood cells trying to escape thru my nose. *luaffs*
whatever it is, i haf chose to escape frm reality. i went to see doctor and he said i shld go back to him if nose bleeds continues, and he will refer me to dunno who and who, what and what. AND!! i shall not go back. to me, its better not noe why.

so i haf found a reason for myself, I AM JUS TOO HEATY!

haf tried to take off next sunday to complete all my undone stuff (mostly homework). but dunno my SUPERvisor approve anot. shall see.

my fyp sux totally to the core. why? coz we are like SO SO behind time. grrr. i wanna dropout!!

i've came up with a list of I HATES when i'm working. shall update again. going to do homework now. nites ppl.

yea!!!!

2005-07-27T12:36:00.000+08:00

yea!!! i finally blogged. lol. was intending to blog on monday de lor. but hor... my freaking laptop went crazy on sunday nite. so cannot blog lor......

a few updates about me.

1) i am having term break now.

2) i am getting so fat that i shld get my bum off my couch and go running. (i will do it later)

3) sch, work, my family (including dear) is all my life revolve around now.

4) i am too lazy to go out. including shopping!! amazing? lol.

5) i am very happy with my current life.

6) work is fine and its fun.

7) still busy with hmwork and i am too lazy to start.

8) PY thinks i'm gonna close down my blog. hiakz.

9) i am broke cos my darling laptop need to repair.

10) I STILL HAVEN GO TO THE HARBIN ICE WONDERLAND.

11) there is nothing on the tv for me to watch.

12) there is sudden lost of interest to study.

see if later i can remember more i update again. now i feel like sleeping liao.

hmm...shld i go sleep den run den hmwrk... or run den sleep den hmwork...or homework sleep run...or hmwork run sleep? wadever. i shall sleep 1st. if not later run till fall down.. nites ppl.

f**king 3 am!

2005-07-06T03:01:00.000+08:00

its f**king 3am!! and i haf class tml at 9.30am
how nice.
i need to blog.
coz i wanna write down how hardworking i was.

i am please to annouce that....

I HAVE COMPLETED ALL THE F**KING BEAMS REINFORCEMENT!!!!

kan ni na, chao turtle.

freaking beam has been torturing me for the past few weeks.
@!!%@$#!$#*^%!*@%^!#^!$#&!@%^*&!@^

i need to sleep. shall continue tml.

chao turtle beam. grrrrrr.

p.s: this post is for my own reference only, and for vent out my frustration. nites ppl.

how childish can a person get?

2005-07-05T20:50:00.000+08:00

heard smthing today. and it makes me go...
HUH? WHY SHE SO CHILDISH ONE?

so now..i'm gonna tell all bout wad i heard. and i'm sure when u ppl read bout it u will have the same reaction as me.
-linzzy the meanie is back-
i'm gonna go make it so obvious its her that if she happens to read she will noe its her and maybe flame me in my tagboard. lol. make my tag board more lively ya? haa!

the story goes.....
py has this friend. lets call her A.
she told me that there is a girl in my previous buddy class who doesn't like us.
lets call her CHILDISH HATER.
why i say previous is bcoz she is not in my buddy class animore. don't know is dropout or retain.
US as in the grp, which consist of....me, py, von & mama.
and obviously i don't care whether she like me anot. but still... out of curiosity i asked, how u know?
py replied that CHILDISH HATER used to be her A's friend ex girlfriend. and so CHILDISH HATER got to know A. not knowing that A know py. and thus CHILDISH HATER add A to friendster. things are going well for CHILDISH HATER and A (at least as a normal friend) . and here comes the best part, once CHILDISH HATER knows that A knows py, she stop talking to her and even delete her from friendster. (LOL!) but one thing i don't understand, py is in her friendster list too! so contradicting.

after hearing this, i was like speechless. i mean, i think she should be 19 this year, WHERE GOT 19 STILL SO CHILDISH ONE!!!! wah piang. no people so childish one lor.

its like, i don like her. so if u talk to her or know her then we don't be friend lor.

*faints*

oh. i haf also concluded, she might not hate all four of us, she might jus don't like one of us. which make her don't like our group. *LOL*

and the most suitable candidate i can think of is me lor. bcoz she nv add me as friend ma. so shld be me lor. and i have always known that alot people don't like me. don't like don't like lor. what to do. i cannot force people to like me mah. correct or not?

or maybe i shld ask all ppl who hate me can like me anot.

so here goes.....

don hate me can or not? we be friends lar. ok mah? preety please.... *begs* don like that lar... we be friends lar... ok ok? hao lar.... bu yao zhe yang lar....

so many stuffs...

2005-07-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

so many things waiting for me to clear.

1) my CT homework - due tml
2) my UCD proj - due thurs
3) my measurement(fyp) - 1st submission on thurs
and most impt of all..

MY EXAMS COMING SOON.

wth?!?! i tot i jus started sch. lol

was chatting with a fren.
she said "i'm jus like a bus driver. and friends are like passenger. they choose as and when they alight the bus. and there will always be new passenger."

it kept me thinking...and i realise....
i am a bus driver too.
everyone is..

haf the sudden urge of dropping out of sch. but i noe if i do that i would disappoint my mum. argh. shitty life.

omg. headache. grrr..gotta go rest den do my homework. and do my measurement.

SO MANY THINGS TO DO!!!

god noes when.

2005-07-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging since god noes when. actually don feel like blogging but jus wanna haf a post for 1st of july. LOL! i'm being lame. i noe.

bz. very very bz. projs, projs, going out, gaming and now 1 more. working. i'll be working on weekends starting from tml at IKEA! yes i noe. ugly uniform. but heck! i need to money. anione miss me? can go there peek at me. LOL!!!

so so boring...

i realise i amused smone today with wad i say.
it started when....

py touched my neck using her icy cold hands. and i got so freaking aroused. *duh*
me: cb u! *it was soft, was in class ma*
py: *laugh*
me: wad so funny?
py: why u say cb so cute 1...ppl say cb lar! u say cb u. *she was amused. and i don understand why*
and she went on doing an action which amuse the hell out of me.
py: cb u! cb u! cb u! *point to her u know where*

ya lar. very lame. but isn't it nice to have smone in class whom u could amuse and amuse u as well? LOL!

she made my day. (thou its almost end of the day in sch.) could nv forget her actions.

thinking of maybe close down this blog.
reasons?
i haf no time for it.
i dunno wad to write animore.

or maybe, i would change the address. jus for my own viewing purposes.
aiyah. dunno lar. nobody reads aniway. so i read only lor. not bad hor. the idea.
hmm...

dear went home. hais. so lonely at home.
gonna go do my measurement le.

OMG! i need to iron my uniform.

take care ppl...

no reason

2005-06-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

I AM TIRED!
I AM LAZY!
THUS I'M NOT BLOGGING.
its said human eyes are most sensitive to green and yellow. HAA!

aiyah. jus tired and lazy to type lar. alot things happen.

i chop off my hair. i dye my hair.
i've grown fatter and fatter.
i being smoking back again.
i failed my detox program terribly.
am busy with sch. very busy.
saw a fucking bangala sleep on the MRT floor (near the door) which make me miss my train coz i can't get in! all bangala who sleeps in MRT and happens to read this. GO AND DIE! NO ONE SLEEPS ON THE FLOOR. U THINK WAD. HDB VOID DECK AH! blardy hell.
maybe going to sentosa with the gers this thurs. MAYBE.
will be going to Harbin Ice Wonderland this sat. with dear that is. if u happen to miss me can go there can find me. will be there in the afternoon. LOL!!
last but not least. i wish to quit sch. DAMN!

there! i've updated. LOL!!!

friends.....

2005-06-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

seems that there is something wrong with my blog. dunno what's wrong. anione has problem accessing to it??

sch reopen till now 2 weeks already. so tiring. everyday sch sch and sch. trying hard not to be late and not to sleep in class. worrying bout projs and projs. esp fyp. very very sucky.

i haf a very boring life. argh.

mon-fri would surely be sch. usually too tired to go out after that.
fri night, sat and sun would be at home. 1stly, no money. 2ndly, no place to go!! 3rdly, don feel like clubbing(very noisy).
i feel so old..grrr

suddenly realise that i haven been going out with my friends for very long already.
and like they suddenly all disappear leh.
why ah?
hmm...
and i hardly tok to them animore.

i noe most of it is my fault. being not free to mit them up or shld i say no money.
i guess they gave up calling me to go out already.
i am really sorry. its either i am too occupied with my stuff or i'm realli too broke to go out.
its not that i don't wan go out with u ppl ok.
not purposely de.
esp tricia karen huixin blah blah...

still feel bad not attending karen's and liwen's bday. hais...

to the gerls:
i know u all will sure see this. no matter wad, take care k. u ppl still matters alot to me.

love,
linz

......x[A] [C] o m p l i c a t e d [W] o r l d [O] f [M] i n ex......

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NEW NAME!!!

guys..irritating ones.

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hiatus

THIS, have to stop.

the long waited, KL trip.

so much to say, so little time.

photos!!!

friends, what are they?

my stuffs are in~!~!~!

lots of things, lots of memories

i finally did it.

i am sooooooooo l-a-z-y

urgh.

shoes anione???

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underworld = crap.

soon.

childish

it is times like this

jumps ard, hops ard.

random updates.

before and after.

exams are officially over.

technorati's top search.

i is sway.

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paint my room scene 1. take 2!

my greatest achievement.

Reviews.

happy = broke?

ktv again...

a weekend to celebrate.

new year's eve.

new year resolutions

simple xmas eve, peaceful xmas.

hungry = angry

ups, downs.

happenings.

all i want for xmas is......

i declare war!

sometimes my friends just amuse me.

baker me!

linz = lian?

random updates.

i hereby announce...

my best birthday present...

dear's bday present is...

i jus realise...

haven been..

i am...

u may not have realise...

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stupid ppl. *argh*

alone

found.

stupid ppl. argh